Date: Sun, 21 Nov 2004 22:52:40 -0800 (PST)
From: Elaine L
Subject: KEVIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
To: Kevin Hor
hi hi hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
*fighting with demons inside*
wassuppppppppppp??? thought i'd email you.... wish you could write back more often (ouh but i know it was me who have not written for awhile). it's nice hearing from you and see how you see stuff... cause i realized i'm abit of an airhead. i definitely need to read more.... and learn more... and shimasu alot more........ i like that japanese word, shimasu... denotes "do" but can be used so flexibly... but generally do wayyyyyy more... do i even have a point here.
You know i realized i wish i was a little normal. here i am chatting with my friends and writing an email with you but seriously, i am battling so many demons inside. It's like i attach too many meanings to too many things (the music i listen to, the conversations i have, etc) that nothing i say is really just face value, there's just so much of other stuff going on behind every word i write and everything i do that sitting here i writing i have 10,000 other thoughts fighting by trying to pull me down and make me feel like crap about life.... and that's what i am constantly depressed even when i don't want to. i guess this is the meaning of boredom.
ouh must be making u depressed.
ANYWAYS! asian kung fu generation rocks! if there's one thing i regret abt not listening my friends and watching naruto earlier is that if i did i'd have known abt AKG much much muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh earlier!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But yeah i am feeling like flying to Japan to see them for a concert. that's the meaning of life. going places that u can tell your grandkids about how stupid and impulsive you were when u were young but you're only young once and when this is gone that's it but i also went out on a date with a 48 year old man who is totally not like a 48 year old... i guess the whole family responsibility thing really changes people and GOD please give me a boyfriend like NOW so that i can have one relationship in my life so that i can get it over with and just be happy alone for the rest of my life and still not be pathetic cause i like being alone and i don't like the life ordinary.
that my friend, is a run-on sentence.
ok! write back i hope and tell me how you're doing... Are you gonna go back to KL in december? i'll be back there from 20th dec - 25th Jan i think.... if ur back there we could all go hang out again... yay... i guess... argh i need friend joh!
elaine
-mai waarudo-
AND NO, i am not on drugs right now. it's just a lil cold. due to the fan that is.
Biggest lie that you can tell yourself is that you're okay. which i don't think i am either that or this room is too cold and i mean that literally. this song it's sooo good it's called Mayonaka to Mahiru no Yume and don't ask me what it means cause i don't know.... i just know it means Mayonaka AND Mahiru's something..... whatever Mayonaka and Mahiru and Yume means....... wait.... lemme check....
woooooooooooo i got it.... in my retarded elementary Japanese translation... Mayonaka to Mahiru no Yume means.... midnight and midday's dream...... =D
woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!! according to Norika-chan i got it right!!! woooooooo...... soooo happy.... Japanese class worked!!!! my dad's USD1300 didn't go to waste apparently! wooooooooo....
anyways....... i dunno. i wish i understood the rest of the song. damn.
REASON WHY I WANNA UNDERSTAND JAPANESE:
so that i can understand these AKG songs....... cause they are soooooooo beautiful. or dang, they SOUND so beautiful.
Damn i still can't find a song for the video i want........... all all the songs sounds great but all the songs also contain some problems with visuals............ damn.
Monday, November 22, 2004
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