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so i thought I wrote something about Taking Back Sunday.... actually about Adam...

that's Adam...



He sings for TBS and he writes some songs for TBS...

the thing is that... Adam's been getting some bad rep lately cause TBS nearly broke up last April cause of Adam... Adam was dating the sister of John who was his bestfriend/guitarist/songwriter of TBS... and Adam cheated on John's sister not once but twice... and the second time he cheated on her John had enough of it and said "if I can't trust you to be faithful to my sister, how can i trust you with the band" and subsequently left the band along with bassist Shaun.... da thing is that John is the backbone of TBS cause he writes most of the songs and so we fans for a while day really thought TBS was a gonner.... (read my past blogs during that period to see my laments! haha!)... but well, thankfully, they didn't break up... TBS got back and John formed his new band with Shaun and heh, his sister Michelle Nolan =D called Straylight Run (www.straylightrun.com).

Anyways...

I got the wonderful opportunity to see TBS live two weeks ago when they played in 2 shows in LA... First show was at the Roxy and it was specially for fans on their mailing list. And second show was for the talk show Jimmy Kimmel...

So anyway...

I have always liked Adam cause he's really intense on stage. If you had read or bothered to read ;) my past emails when I first saw TBS live back in April, I had mentioned that if there was anyone who could match Nate's intensity on stage, it would be Adam...
But he just had a bad rep, that's all...

Anyway.... both these shows really made me like adam more and I say screw it to all those bad things circulating around about Adam.. I mean I don't care what he did in his personal life, but as a band, he is one of the more awesome people in bands I've met in my life.

First, I went for their Roxy show and well we were all waiting outside to be let in... And then to my shock, at like 7:30pm when the place was swirming with 500 of TBS biggest fans, I see ADAM popping out from the FRONT DOOR of the club! I was totally surprised! Cause headlining bands RARELY EVER come out to meet fans cause it's just too dangerous and tiring! And here Adam was actually coming out at this hour!! and not just that man... TBS wasn't just HEADLINING, it was a SPECIAL TBS SHOW FOR TBS FANS! i was just really shocked...
But I did go talk to Adam and I asked him what I had wanted to ask him "hey, you should write a book!" hahahaha which he really should cause I love his writing style!!! (to read my utmost favourite Adam's writing: www.bandwagonmusic.com/adamssong.htm) And we talked abit and he was REALLY TALL and polite! haha! But anyways, I was again starstruck and well, dumb... so didn't say much :(
So anyway... that was that.... made me respect Adam alot....

AND THEN... there was the Jimmy Kimmel show.

The gates was only gonna open at like 9pm... but some of us kids got there early. THe first girl got there at 9am... then my friend at 1pm and then I got there at 2pm cause I wanted front row mosh pit and TBS is notorious for drawing early crowds... so I got there at 2pm... But anyway... by like 5pm there was quite a queue there already, at least 20-30 kids... and then around like 6pm... a white SUV pulled up the front gate and the windows were down and there they were TBS!!

and all us fans cheered like mad for them and they in turn cheered back!!

so the car went inside then the next thing u know, 5 minutes later ADAM walks out!!!!!

and he stood there at the side of the line just like 1 meter from me and he annouced "hey, I just wanna thank you guys for coming out so early just to support us. It really means alot to me seriously," and he bowed to us..

THAT WAS JUST AWESOME don't you think?!

and so yeah, kids then went up to him for pictures and autograph and me and my friend was there and we were really shy... then I had my journal with me... and I remember I had scribbled on one of the pages back in July "TAKING BACK SUNDAY IS PLAIN AWESOME" and I suddenly had the idea to write down "So tell me Adam, what do you think of TBS?" and ask him to write down his answer!

So I did just that!!

I wrote down "so tell me Adam, what do you think of TBS?" and I went to Adam and told him to write his answer and he was like "what do I think of tbs?"... he took the pen and wrote "I think they are cute" then he stopped did some autograph and came back to me and added. "Really really cute". hehehehehe... then I told him to write his name and he was like "my name?" and I was like "yeah, so people know you said it, write like "adam says"," so he was like "oh okay!" and wrote "A says,"

hahahaha!

see...





heheheheeh.... so that's why now I like to refer to TBS's song Cute Without The "E" (Cut From The Team) as... Cute Without John (Cut From The Team)!! hahahahaha....

awww John... actually I love John too! he is a brilliant man who writes brilliant music... with BEAUTIFUL Michelle Nolan! (she looks REALLY good actually!) hahaha... so go check out that band k!


But yeah...

I think Adam's really nice to kids... seriously....

Back last year Adam would regularly post on the TBS yahoo msg board and after shows he would usually post out his thank you to fans for coming out to support them. that it means alot to him. and he thanks them for actually singing along the song...
He actually went up to Luis after a show and thanked Luis for singing along during the show! hahaha... that's awesome, you know, that's really awesome.

Like for most of their shows, he would really thank the fans... I still remember him saying back in April in one of the Palace shows he said "it's not about who's up here that matters. It's about who's down there looking up at the person up here that matters"-- and at the Roxy show he also thanked the fans again saying "thanks for coming out here to see us. It really means alot to me. I really appreciate it".
Although he repeats it again at the Jimmy Kimmel show or in the msg board or anywhere else, you still know that he's sincere.... cause I mean seriously, adam did NOT have to walk out to meet us and to thank us at all, but the fact is that he ACTUALLY did! and that rates really high in my book.

www.takingbacksunday.com | www.straylightrun.com

okay... as a respect to reality this is actually Tim's REAL girlfriend or at least she is back in September last year.... so i wonder abt that status right now... but anyways, this is she.



her name's Audrey- she's from Dublin. duh, Ireland lah.. there's where's Ash from except Charlotte. Chaz's from London :) She's in a band called The Alice Band (http://www.thealiceband.co.uk/#) So yeah, that's her... Tim wrote this song for his "girlfriend"- so if they're still together, I guess it's for Audrey.

Shining Light

Roman candles that burn in the night,
Yeah, you are a shining light
You lit a torch in the infinite,
Yeah, you are a shining light
Yeah, you light up my life

You have always been a thorn in their side,
But to me you�re a shining light
You arrive and the night is alive,
Yeah, you are a shining light
Yeah, you light up my life

We made a connection,
A full on chemical reaction
Brought by dark divine intervention
Yeah, you are a shining light
A constellation once seen,
Over Royal David�s City
An epiphany, you burn so pretty
Yeah, you are a shining light

You are a force you are a constant source,
Yeah, you are a shining light
Incandescent in the darkest night,
Yeah, you are a shining light
My mortal blood I would sacrifice,
For you are a shining light
Sovereign bride of the infinite,
Yeah, you are a shining light
Yeah, you light up my life

We made a connection,
A full on chemical reaction
Brought by dark divine intervention
Yeah, you are a shining light
A constellation once seen,
Over Royal David�s City
An epiphany, you burn so pretty
Yeah, you are a shining light

These are the days you often say,
There�s nothing that we cannot do
Beneath a canopy of stars,
I�d shed blood for you
The north star in the firmament,
You shine the most bright
I�ve seen you draped in an electric veil,
Shrouded in celestial light

We made a connection,
A full on chemical reaction
Brought by dark divine intervention
Yeah, you are a shining light
A constellation once seen,
Over Royal David�s City
An epiphany, you burn so pretty,
Yeah, you are a shining light
Yeah, you light up my life,
Yeah, you are a shining light
Yeah, you light up my life

The song is Ash's first single off their current latest album Free All Angels... Tim won the honorary Songwriter Award, the Ivar Award, for this song :) he deserves it, Tim writes REALLY well.

oh my goshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I just found out EXACTLY where Ash is recording their new album..........

6 miles from where I live!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




alas........ i know i am no stalker... because though I know EXACTLY where they are... and heh, I even have the bus route (just two busses ;) ).... there is no compulsion to go there..... actually there's even a fear.... like i mean... what the hell.... I mean.. I know I was desperate to know where EXACTLY they were in LA, but now that I know, and to know even that they are THAT close to me.... it's not like it's anything you can do about it right??

okay... i have no life.... but I'm just in this Tim and Charlotte mood!
here's what they've said about each other!


-the lovely couple!!! Okay, i think it's about time to officiate it, Tim and Chaz!! PLEASE!
(pic taken from Warmer Than Fire vid- the single Ash vid i love the most cause it's an awesome song and it's about love, and the vid has mostly Tim there and CHARLOTTE, so it's almost as if he's singing the song about her! haha!)


Back in 97
What would she (Charlotte) be like to go out with?
Tim: "I don't think it would be very serious... Oh God, I don't fucking know."
Rick: "Not my type."
Tim: "I can see how she'd be attractive to a lot of people, but again, not my type. It'd be like sleeping with your sister."
Mark: "It's like I can say Tim's a good-looking guy, but, you know, he doesn't do anything for me."

What's his (Tim) most appealing quality?
All: "His arse."
Charlotte: "He's got a really lovely arse in his tight blue jeans."
Rick: "Oh it looks good. Being the drummer, all I get to see onstage is Tim's arse."

Is he (Tim) a hit with the opposite sex?
Rick: "Yeaaaah."
Charlotte: "Because of his..."
Rick: "Stature?"
Charlotte: "Apparently he has got a big one."


Back in 97
How does she (Charlotte) get on with them individually?

"Well, Rick is probably the easiest to get on with," she begins, carefully, "because he doesn't get too riled by anything. Mark is... very hard. Sometimes he can be quite hard to communicate with. That's just a case of getting to know him, I think. After a year [laughs nervously], it hasn't really progressed a lot. Tim's just so... You can't find any fault with him really. But sometimes it's hard to talk to him too cos he's so immersed in all this stuff that's going on and he's got so much to deal with."

Even though it's a ridiculous question, it has to be asked: if she was absolutely forced - at gun-point, whatever - to have a sexual relationship with one of them, which would she choose?

"Oh God, I dunno," she gasps in mock horror. "God. Well, I won't say Mark cos I've had threatening letters about touching him. I won't say Tim cos I'll probably get threatening letters. Maybe poor old Rick. Yeah... [purring mock seductively] maybe Rick."

Rick McMurray

"Yeah, I suppose she's right," considers Rick, assured master of the dry quip, in response to Charlotte's earlier frank admission. "If I was forced to have a sexual relationship with anyone in the band, it would be me."


Early 98
WHO WAS THE WOMAN OF 1997?
Tim: Charlotte Hatherley
Rick: For being stupid enough to join our band.
(aww! u know... i found it really sweet that Tim actually did say Charlotte. don't ya think?! seriously)

Back in 98
Talking of the fair Ms. Hatherley, how's she been acquitting herself in the studio?
"Terrible. She hasn't made us breakfast in bed or darned our socks once," says Wheeler disgustedly.


Back in 99
Charlotte on modelling for Calvin Klein
"I haven't seen the finished pictures ye, just the polaroids. They were a bit anal about it, wouldn't even let me take photos of the set! It was alright, except the photograher kept calling me Dolores, that bint from the Cranberries, which was a bit fucking offensive! Tim looked really fucking hot - all fucked up in smudged eyeliner - and I just had cat-like make-up to the max. I felt like a bit of a Chiswick scruff amid all those cameras, though, so I'm sure they'll airbrush me to fuck!"


Back in 2001
TOTP: Who's got the most annoying habits?
Both: Charlotte.
Rick: Yeah, she just stinks really!
Tim: Oh, she doesn't stink, but she's just very forgetful and leaves things everywhere.
Rick: Untidy and stinky.


Back in 2002
What�s it like being in a band with Charlotte and are there any plans for a Charlotte solo album?
Sender: Richard P.
Tim: �Charlotte is talking about doing a record of her own stuff, so watch this space for that. It is great being in a band with her, of course. She is so down to earth � and although she says she isn�t, she really is one of the lads.�
Rick: �Charlotte has been working on some solo stuff recently but I dunno when it�s going to come out. We always seem to get people asking us is anyone in the band shagging Charlotte but it�s like: �Nah. We ain�t going there�.�

Tim, are you single?
Sender: Aisling Walsh
Tim: �No, I�m not, actually.�
(damn tim.. say Charlotte)


Back in 2002
Charlotte Hatherley, hanging out and hamming it up, is making David Bowie stage moves with her hands, singing the words to 'China Girl'. She's a big fan. Tomorrow she'll walk up to him backstage and introduce herself, and he, in turn, will be gracious and friendly. She'll return to her table physically shaking from the experience. She'll tell you that 'Absolute Beginners' got her through her "difficult" teenage years. She'll then do a lousy Bowie impression, and look confused when you can't work out who it is she's impersonating. She looks thrilled when she's told that she's just been 'checked out' by a fireman. She drops to the floor and kicks her right leg, like a rock star.

How come you don't do those moves onstage?

"Because I have a guitar to play."

She smiles as it's suggested that the guitar probably isn't actually even plugged in, that Charlotte Hatherley is really just eye candy.

"Yeah, and not very good-looking eye candy at that," says Tim Wheeler.

Tim gets a slap.

Looking up at the billboards hung outside the Virgin Megastore, she fixes on a picture of the baby adorning the cover of the new Papa Roach record.

"Aren't babies cute?" she asks.

Are you getting broody?

"Yes. Do you want to help me out?"

Charlotte Hatherley says things like this all the time, to everyone. She'll tell you that she's off to play with her "fanny fiddle" - "get it right if you're going to put that in the piece" - and that she's off to "have a quick shag" with Tim Wheeler (it would have to be, they're back within five minutes).


October 2002
There always seems to be a strong chemistry onstage between Tim and Charlotte. Is there anything we should know about?
Rosie Mockford, Gloucestershire
Charlotte Hatherley: [Coyly] All will be revealed.
Tim Wheeler: [Laughing] We've been trying to keep it secret for a while, but it seems to be leaking out.
Rick McMurray: If you want to know the real story, all the sexual tension in the band revolves around me.
CH: Yeah, if the truth be told, I'm really using Tim to get to Rick.
RM: That's because everyone loves my riser. My drum riser.



sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

FALL IN LOVE DUDE!!!!!!!!! FALL IN LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

wuahahahahha! achievement for me that I actually embeded this here! wooo!!! anyways......... FOR YOUR VIEWING PLEASURE! I TOLD YOU TIM WAS SINGING TO CHARLOTTE!! Now you can see it for yourself!!!

dammit!! FALL IN LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well i mean think of it... it was Tim who chose Charlotte to be in the band! Tim chose Chaz!!! oh come on now!! i mean... some attraction? some? at least a little? a little........? no? YES????? YES!!!!! please!!!!!!!! =\\

whoops.. nearly forgot to give credit- video copyrighted to Infectious Records- taken from Ash single Candy CD 2.

you know... after everything... i still love Ash... shit, no, i still want Tim and Charlotte to fall in love with each other!!! I mean... enough of that flirting!!! isn't being confined in the same small space with the same person for the past 5 years sufficient for romance??? i mean for goodness sake! they've see the world together!! they play shows together... they have that Only In Dreams guitar duel awwww!!! c'mon Tim!! c'mon Charlotte!! you'd make me so happy!!!!

sigh... perhaps... only in dreams indeed :((


-look!!!! THAT TIM!!! he's ALWAYS flirting with Charlotte!! Seriously! Charlotte is like always so in her own world, so cool! And Tim's always the one going over to her!! c'mon tim!!! seriously, like for the show I went for, like Tim walked over to Charlotte's side of the stage like NUMEROUS times and he'd go near her, play near her, nudge her and all that!!! TIME TO FALL IN LOVE NOW THANK YOU!!!!



-aww look!!! he's fixing her guitar for her!!! awwwwwwww come on, come on!!! COME ON!!!!


oh why please why Tim, Charlotte.... please.... sigh.... I've been wishing for YEARS for them to fall in love with each other.... but yet... my heart's desire... is yet not fulfilled =((( sigh.... i wish.... i wish..... they're just so cute together sometimes you know!! seriously! he's cute, she's cute- it's perfect!!!!!!!!!


-the Only In Dream Duel... unfortunately I didn't get to see this with my own eyes... but I saw this one video clip, shit, unfortunately there was no audio track to it, cause shit, it looks like Tim was singing to Charlotte, cause she was playing her guitar and he was facing HER and singing!!! AWWWWWWWWWWW PLEASE LET IT BE SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh well... =(((((

alas, alas... Jed... be quick to release that movie okay?????!! i wanna see Tim and Charlotte together, even if it's just in some show!! hahahahaha... you and i love them both together don't we! thank goodness you know the band personally! hahahahahha
shit... some hint to them now won't ya?!

MORAL DILEMMA!!!!!!!!!!

shucks lah!!! the girls christian camp I've been going for the past 11 years is on December 15th till 18th....
my term ends on the 13th... and if I leave CA right after school ends, I'd still be able to reach back home in time for camp!!!!!!!!!!!!

BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

I wanted to stay here longer till at least 17th!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! coz... heh... i wonder what shows there are gonna be in December, and I heard that Finch or Blink might be on KROQ's Acoustic Christmas and that's like on December 17th!!!!!!!!!

soooooooooooo

should I stay or should i go back home??????????? =(((

oh i wanted to talk abit about TBS-

Like TBS is the only band that has been able to continuously sustain my attention for the past year- seriously. It's like for the past whole year, that's been the only band I've been listening to non stop- no matter who else I'm also listening to at that time, TBS has been the only band which keeps showing up on my playlist.

Like okay, lemme see.

July, August - Something Corporate, TBS, Days Away, Wakefield, Finch, The Starting Line
August, September, October - Taking Back Sunday, Juliana Theory, Thursday, The Starting Line, Something Corporate, Days Away, New Found Glory
October, November, December, January - Juliana Theory, Taking Back Sunday, Days Away, Finch, Good Charlotte, Allister
January, Febuary, March - Taking Back Sunday, Allister
March, April - The Ataris, No Use For A Name, Useless ID, Taking Back Sunday
April, May, June - Taking Back Sunday, Days Away
July, August - Brand New, Taking Back Sunday
August, September - Brand New, Dashboard Confessional, Taking Back Sunday, The Movielife

It's just that I can't really remember a time that I actually stopped listening to TBS for a long period of time... maybe abit when I was listening to alot of Ataris and Useless ID and all that older pop punk period. But I don't think that lasted even a month...

It seems that I was addicted to There's No I In Team, Eleven, and You're So Last Summer back in September last year...

I can still remember... I was doing that Advertising portfolio that whole night... I guess it was back in August... and I remember I had mostly emo songs on the playlist on my radio the whole night (very depressing mix i must say!)- and I remember I fell in love with Something Corporate that night though I got kinda annoyed with Andrew's voice hahahah.... I'M SO SORRY Andrew!! But after 10 hours of SoCo, Andrew has such a high pitch voice!! amost whiney like Jordan's of NFG... BUT anyways... I remember that night also, made me pay attention to TBS and made me really like them too... cause i remember somewhere along the night I picked out the lines from one of their songs (You're So Last Summer) that went "the truth, is you could slit my throat and with my one last gasping breath I'd apologise for bleeding on your shirt!" and I thougt that was the COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOLEST lines ever!!!

so yeah... that was when I REALLY "discovered" TBS.

then I know for sure that that during the October, November and December period before i left I had Great Romances on the playlist of my MD... it was the first song, I think...
And then in the whole period of January, Febuary, March when I first got here I know for sure Great Romances was the song- oh yeah... AND THEN I saw them like in mid April during my spring break and they played You Know How I Do during the show and that made me dig up all their older songs... and I got addicted to You Know How I Do from then on and the rest of TBS till who knows when!!! April, May, June, July and then August I took a liking to Cute Without The E (Cut From the Team) again... and then I like ALOT Tiberwolves At New Jersey, then now I'm back to You Know How I Do again!!!!

But seriously... I can't really think of a time that I didn't like TBS or got bored of them for the past 1 year... maybe during that 2-3 weeks i suddenly had a longing for pop punk again... (TOO MUCH EMO!!!!!!!) but that's it!!!

TBS! rock on!

well one thing i know is that... like when I travel out or somewhere far... and my Ipod can only last me 10 hours, I'd usually use my MD also, cause the MD I can use batteries... and I know for sure that I can count on TBS to entertain me... Like the MD can only fit like 18 songs... so sometimes you know how you suddenly feel like listening to some other song and you don't have it? or you get sick and tired of the 18? But well... that's the good thing about TBS for me! I suffer relatively low burn out rate from TBS and I can usually still listen to it on and on and on- especially like the songs that are currenly on repeat in my head... like right now, I am still really addicted to You Know How I Do and Tiberwolves At New Jersey... I think I can loop those two songs for hours itself!

well... I hope this goes on for the next few months... got a very long journey back to Malaysia...

and yeah... I wanna bring TBS home with me...

i love you TBS...

I'm glad I got to tell Adam that i do think that TBS is awesome...

It's a shame I don't think that they'll notice
(it's a shame, I don't think that they'll notice)
It's a shame I doubt they even care
(it's a shame I doubt they even care)

becareful who you give your heart to-

oh yeah, I forgot... today's my 8th month in America.

i know it's been long, I'll write about updates later-

September 11th today- dad told me not to go out- ended up sleeping in bed the whole day- well, I have been going out continuously till late for the past 5 days anyway, I think my legs and bum deserves a well earned rest-

TBS kicks ass-