Date:Fri, 27 May 2005 10:41:23 -0700 (PDT)
From:"Elaine Loh"
Subject:hey... how did your finals go?
To:nr2128@hotmail.com
hey... so how was your finals? was it okay?? muzukashii??? i hope u did well anyway, heh, enough to pass the two classes! but i'm sure u will. Professors grade curve don't they??? =D Will you be taking summer school? At CSUN or at another college like u said you might.?
Anyway, i hope we can still be friends. Have not heard from you for awhile. But i guess you were really busy. But you know, if it's because of something that i did, then i really do apologize. i mean like if i messed up, i didn't mean for it to be like that.. i'm sorry...
Well.. i hope that, yeah, i could talk to u again or something.hm.
take care yah. and rest well.
elaine.
What the heck man!!!!!!! didn't i just say like 6 hours ago that i will wait a day or two to email him but noooooooooooooooooooooooooo.... was lying in bed and thinking about the things he once said and the things he once did and i realize i miss him...
That's one thing about Ryota though, sometimes... i really do miss him, if this can be called "miss" anyway...
Well it's true ain't it that the Japanese don't have a word for "miss" and the only way to express it is to say "i am lonely when you're not here."
yet... That's not what i feel. I don't feel lonely without him. I just feel this ache in my heart that wish we could be like we have been before, before i fucked up, before he got too busy... i don't know waht happened.... just "before" would do for me...
and maybe that's why i can't get over him... that i still smile and 'miss' the 'happier' times before this.
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