Now that I�m certain,
There�s so much more to gain.
I am a little depressed to say the least. i guess maybe that's why it's good that i have alot of work to do in school. maybe i should stay longer then i won't need to idle at home.
I just feel that i wasted my life. taken alot of bad turns and ended up somewhere not where i want to be. I wrote an email to my journalism teachers and one of them told me to go where my passion lies. But there's also the thing that it's already too late sometimes, and mistakes made for too long cannot be reversed.
Truth is that life is not like a good Jimmy Eat World song. There is a reason why people aren't happy. There is a reason why some people, if not many people, are doing things that they don't want to. Truth is that passion is easier imagined than lived and dreams are easier made than realized.
Are you gonna live your life wonderin'
standing in the back lookin' around?
Are you gonna waste your time thinkin'
how you've grown up or how you missed out?
Things are never gonna be the way you want.
Where's it gonna get you acting serious?
Things are never gonna be quite what you want.
Or even at 25, you gotta start sometime.
I'm on my feet, I'm on the floor, I'm good to go.
Now all I need is just to hear a song I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
Are you gonna live your life standing in the back looking around?
Are you gonna waste your time?
Gotta make a move or you'll miss out.
Someone's gonna ask you what it's all about.
Stick around nostalgia won't let you down.
Someone's gonna ask you what it's all about.
Whatcha gonna have to say for yourself?
I'm on my feet, I'm on the floor, I'm good to go.
Now all I need is just to hear a song I know.
I wanna always feel like part of this was mine.
I wanna fall in love tonight.
And although the song is exactly how i feel tonight, you know what? even if i did hear a song I know... it's not gonna change anything.
You know, i'm at the point that i don't even want to dream about living my passion. I feel right now that all i want to do is derail my life so it won't end up where life is pushing me into mediocrity. I still want my life less ordinary, you know, dammit i still want that... and i'd be sure as hell more ready to put a gun in my head than to find myself caught in rush hour KL traffic next summer on my way to some half ass bummed out work i don't even like but just have to have cause fuck, that is the way of life.
"I just can't understand why things can't be normal at the end of the half an hour. Like Brady Bunch or something."
"Cause here Mr. Brady died of AIDS. Things just don't work out that way."
"It's just that I always thought i was going to be somebody by the age of 23, you know."
"Honey, the only thing you can be by the age of 23 is yourself."
"I don't even know what that is anymore..."
and iTunes is playing a song that i know... unfortunately the omen rings, New Found Glory's Downhill From Here.
indeed.
gun to my head.
cause really, if you're not happy for the rest of your life, you're really much better off dead.
and that is another New Found Glory song by the way.
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