ひとりの夜もそばにいようぜ　君と僕の歌を歌う

Just want to let you know that I'm still a fan

I saw finch again yesterday. wanted to skip the show actually cause it was too far (it was actually only at Sunset but no thanks to the shitty public transportation in LA, it's gonna take me 2 hours just to get there (when it would take only 30 mins by car!! what the heck!!!))...

So anyway, i called Travis up and he said he'd go with me, so i went... albiet, this is the first time i TOTALLY went late for a show (at 8pm when doors open at 8pm.... can u believe it??? elaine going THAT late?!)

We still go to get up infront though because it's a really small venue, the Roxy Theater... and that's why i wanted to go too, beside that this might be my last finch show... (ARGH!! DON'T SAY THAT!). It's like back then when i first got here and finch was playing all these big venues, i really wished i had a chance to see them at a small show... and Roxy is like one of the smallest that you can get (besides Chain in Anaheim).

And lets just say..... Finch didn't dissapoint me!!

ouh man, did i ever tell you that nate is incredibly cute????? well, he is!!!!!!!!!!!! ALTHOUGH, we was a tad bit drunk hmmm! But he was amazing, they were all amazing!!

One thing though is that you really can see that they, or at least, NATE, doesn't want to sing old songs anymore. There was just something dispassionate when he sang those old songs (not all of them, but some of them)... i guess they've just overplayed them, huh? And they had a new drummer too. While i thought he was good... for slower songs like Without You Here and Ender... those two songs just died. and when i mean died, i mean died... I don't know what finch did to them, ESPECIALLY Without You Here, cause last night's version totally sucked... SERIOUSLY, sucked compared to the ones i heard before... it's like, Nate didn't wanna sing, there were no accompanying guitars save Randy's and then there was the drums, and that was it.... Dissapointing. The whole intensity of the song was gone... the whole weight of the song, gone!

Anyway, it was still amazing. I miss them alot... forgot why i love them... I missed like 4 of their shows so far in the past 2 1/2 years.... which sucks really. Anyway, i'm going to miss you Finch, damn i am going to miss you so much, when i leave...

Well, i asked a girl, Libby, if she could send me the pics she took from the show last night. She'd send it to me on Sunday... so i'll put them up after i get it... hopefully there's a cute pic of nate too! wuahahahah...

anyways, i'm still abit heartbroken about ryota, despite everything. Of course i've come to surrender more, but sometimes, it still hurts abit.... not knowing why... and what happened... that's all... i wish he'd give me closure.... but i guess.... that's wishful thinking.

ouh yeah, on a last note.... i think when i leave America, the best memories of my times here are all forged among the streets of Sunset or Hollywood... like last night, the joy of being there, the heat from the show inside and when you walk out, the cold night air against your cheeks... it just evokes the memories of all the times before when i really had fun there....