ひとりの夜もそばにいようぜ　君と僕の歌を歌う

Happiness is to know the Savior,
Living a life within His favor,
Having a change in my behavior,
Happiness is the Lord.
Happiness is a new creation,
Jesus and me in close relation,
Having a part in His salvation,
Happiness is the Lord.

Real joy is mine, no matter if teardrops start;
I've found the secret, it's Jesus in my heart!


Happiness is to be forgiven,
Living a life that's worth the living,
Taking a trip that leads to Heaven,
Happiness is the Lord,
Happiness is the Lord,
Happiness is the Lord!


I miss the worship sessions at MPH... God i really miss that... All i want is to sing these songs to God, i feel that maybe i can get through this without lying to myself. but i just have nowhere to go, go church here? It's just so different, so empty in a certain way... pew warmer, i've become a pew warmer.
God forgive me. i don't mean to become waht i have became. i really don't mean to be like this. God You have to believe me.

see i just said something mean to ching mun cause i am angry... she can come and ask me "how did the date go with Paul" i mean WTF?! have i not given enough hints on where the hell to go to get information on THAT? and if it even went remotely well, i would have effing wrote an email WTF!

i swear God i didn't mean to be like this... and i just want to be there again... what is wrong?

happiness is?

i wish u were here. i know u are. why am i so far away? can i crawl back?

i feel like eating.

i want to be.

gone.

somewhere else.

i remember the places.

i'm sorry.

but sorry is all i can offer.

i just want to feel better that's all and i swear i'm gonna be nicer person.

i'm just mean when i am sad and depressed and angry.

sorry.

sorry God.

i want to be there again. in the soft light. when i loved you, when i actually showed it. when i felt something. when i was there. when i was there. when i was there. when i was there and i was happy. i was so happy then, there.

i'm sorry.