I think we grew up past the hang-ups and the evil stares, the fuck you toos and I don't cares
Today is love day, and we shall look past the hang-ups and the evil stares, the fuck you toos and I don't cares....
I guess i was a little very emo yesterday... But i really didn't want to talk to anyone or do anything... But I think it was when cheewoh called at around 10 asking if I wanted to go out for a drink or something.... Well I really didn't want to go because i really didn't feel like talking... But you know, I think for a moment there i stood back and I told myself that I should stop wallowing in self pity, because it's not gonna change anything. Nigel still won't get the things done, he will still be pissed with me and annoyed with me, i still have to go back to college in June everyday, life still goes on whether I like it or not, or whether it goes on the way i want to or not (it always doesn't) but you have to learn to accept it and move on!
So i suppose that was the first time in my life that i decided to stop wallowing in self pity because it was not going to change anything. I think I'm begining to grow up a little by little gradually.
Anyway today is love day, i won't, i mustn't, get angry thinking abt Nigel. Today is love day, I shall love him for who it is...
But actually, oddly, yeah... I was txting cw earlier today, in my original message.... really..... I don't know what Nigel is, he has that very crappy frustrating side to him but...... he also has that very clownish and fun side to him-- and there's a part of him that's the really.... gem part of him--- and you know, i wouldn't and I am sure NO ONE would want Nigel to change from who he is... I really don't. If he's not pissed off at you, he always makes things hillarious, I like that about him--- WELL, if only THAT happened more often than the frustrating side... But well, I AM annoying him to begin with... SO!
Moving on.... I hate what goes on sometimes and all the hang-ups with him, but... in the end.. ultimately... i wouldn't want nigel to be any different from what he is. it's been frustrating, it's been fun, it's been horrendous, it's been wonderful... It has been, well, memorable.
That said, i bet you, in a few hours I am going to be screaming with hate hahahaha.. IT ALWAYS HAPPENS THAT WAY!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T KNOW WHY!!!
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