Tuesday, February 24, 2009

つばき - 「銀河列車(配信限定バージョン)」

ALRIGHT. Just downloaded Tsubaki's new song Gingaressha off iTMS!

Woahhhhh~~~~~~~

Talk about completely different from EVERYTHING they've done before! lol~~~

Do I hear disco????? Seriously!

Sounds more like something that'd pop out from Base Ball Bear's portfolio instead!

Seriously!


Woah! I'm looping the song and you can't even tell where it ends and where it begins! Lol~

Seems like they're really changing their sounds from album to album.... Tho, seems like Hikari is more like a reflection of their usual sound.

Well! I am looking forward to the new album!
Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Buckwheat noodles and Canned Coffee

What the heck............

ODK's post was nothing but buckwheat noodles........

Isshiki's post was nothing but canned coffee.........

oh well.... still.... they posted right?


It's still quite sad Isshiki-san is not posting as much anymore.... Not even about PV stuff and he used to post quite a bit, even though they were busy or something...

BUT ANYWAYS, ODK is posting almost everyday so that's cool!! Get to read something at least!!

Even if it's about buckwheat noodles or canned coffee...
Sunday, February 15, 2009

catastrophic failure.

I think 猫(Neko/Cat) by つばき (Tsubaki) is quite a bitter (???) song. I think la... Can't fully understand it yo! haha

But I really like that one line in it 「この世界は君のもの」. I'm taking it out of context of the song, of course, but just as it is, "Kono sekai wa kimi no mono"... sort of translates to "This is your world"...

I really like it... Because it's like that English saying "The world is your oyster".... And it's like saying, "hey, this is your world, do what you want, do what you can because this world is yours"-- such endless possibilities....

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From:
To: "Robbie McEvoy"


hey you.

thought I'd write this to you.

i still want to write my book.

haha..

that was random huh?

i think many parts of me has been lost in the shuffle in the past few years. it's unfortunate i just can't throw in the towel and call it a day. just take what comes my way instead of being still always the dreamer. it'd be so much easier that way. in fact, i'd probably have been more successful that way. probably some renowned malaysian journalist by now haha.. I am serious though. i can see my dad's rationale, how easy it would be for me to make it in this country.

yet my aim is not to stay, but to leave, and thus. I don't want. I don't want all those. I want what I want but that's getting me nowhere. It's like, since coming home, hell even before I took that flight out of LAX, with every decision I take, more mistakes are made. In fact I feel like I'm shooting myself in the foot each day. That I'm burning down every bridge my dad had so painstakingly and sacrificially built for me.

i can only see my friends rising and soaring, taking a bite out of a portion of this world that is theirs, and then there is me, and I am groping in the dark.

sometimes between here and there, the tomorrow of a realized dream, i just can't see the way.

and.. I'm not afriad, but I am just frustrated at myself that I am so stupid to keep nailing my own coffin-- or that's what i think too, you know?

It's like you know how life is so endless, there could be so much more, but I am nowhere... And that which I can take and grab for myself, I am not, I am pushing them all away as if they were infectious disease.

And even I myself think that I am stupid for choosing the path I am choosing.

It's hard to live with yourself that way, ya know.


I just want to believe that I am not gambling my life on a losing bet.

I just want to believe that though I am stupid, though this choice is absolutely ridiculous, I WANT TO BELIEVE that, one day, I will be proved right-- that this choice would prove to be the right one...

Because I don't quite want riches, I don't want fame, hell, I don't even want a well paying career, you know?

I just want a life less ordinary.

a life less ordinary that I am proud of, a life less ordinary that I am proud of saying that I have lived and I am happy.

That's really all I want.


And spinning all these into that gamble.

I wonder if I am right, or am I just plain stupid. Unrealistic. Still in my own dream world.

I want to believe this is right.

But I can't help but feel everyday that I got it so very wrong.

And I have set myself up for failure.


Is it really better to have tried and failed for that which you love, than to never have even tried at all?
Saturday, February 14, 2009

tell all your friends.

I guess I had to write this one.... I was going through my imeem uploads and saw the Taking Back Sunday upload.

I miss TBS very much (kinda disappointed, just checked their webpage and they've not even released a new album yet!!! I guess I'm not THAT out of touch then!).

Am listening to Your Own Disaster now. And you know, I can remember, sitting at the exact same place now, 7 years ago, listening to this song for the first few times.

I wrote this back in the summer, I think, of '03, when I was first in America and at that time TBS was in limbo because John left the band and we all thought that was the end of Taking Back.

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Ignore the "I wrote" and "Adam answered".

But anyway, I wrote this "TAKING BACK SUNDAY IS PLAIN AWESOME". And I think at that time, I had been listening to TBS solidly for 8 or 9 months. Like everyday I listened to NOTHING but TBS. And I loved every heartbeat of it from the bottom of my heart!! New love I suppose! lol~

Anyway, I loved TBS. I really did.

And I still love TBS. I really do.

And I still love the energy of TBS.

I can't say which experience was more overwhelming, the TBS and Finch shows in America or the Lunkhead shows in Japan. Both were dreams come true, both were as intense, but both held very different meaning for me and both evoke very different feelings within me.

I think I've not heard TBS AT ALL for the past 3 or 4 months.

That's a first.

Because TBS has always been there, I suppose, in one way or another, in the past 7 years. Yes, the band I've probably supported the longest is Ash, but I suppose, TBS is the band that really has been.... there, somewhere, in the past 7 years.. There was always a TBS song to link to a memory...

I can't say now that I love TBS as much as I did. Even now as Tsuki to Tenohira plays and Odaka-san sings those lovely lines, I really can't say I love TBS more than I do Lunkhead. No, not anymore. Not for the past 3 years, I suppose. I guess somewhere in the closing notes of Head Club and the opening lines of What's it feels like to be a Ghost?, and as Asian Kung-Fu Generation, Plastic Tree and then Lunkhead crept in... something was lost.

Yet.

Yet.

As the first few chords of Cute without the E plays now, man... I think, if you ever gave me a chance again, right here right now, I will, in half a heartbeat, jump right into the middle of the mosh pit, without forgetting all the mosh pits we nearly died in, with all my heart, not an ounce less than 5 years ago, I will without missing a beat, "I stay wrecked and jealous for this, for this simple reason I just to keep you in mind as something larger than life!"

Kinda such a pity. My last TBS show was the last 15 minutes of their Boston set, and that was the very last time, and I never got to sing Cute without the E with you again....

But I suppose it's apt.

It's apt because the last song that I did get to sing with them, with everyone, with our breathless voice and the drowning rush, was You Know How I Do- because it was the song that defined my American life. And there in my final months in America, this was its requiem.


Well even now as the first few notes of Great Romances play, I'll always remember listening to Great Romances, while I walked home from CSUN, those first few months in America, as Adam sang and I inhaled the fresh cool air, looking into the sky, smiling, happy, thinking, I was FINALLY under the same sky, on the same continent, walking the same land, in the same country as this band. Wow, what a dream come true. Wow. How great it was, how great it was indeed.


I guess, if I never get to Japan, it's okay, isn't it?

Because I had chosen one dream, and God had already granted me that one dream to live.

Shouldn't be asking for another. For a second dream to come true.

ありがとう。

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Well, at least they got the pop-up, after all. And I'm damn happy about that. At least it's worth it? Yeah, I suppose it was worth it, then. Yes? No? It wasn't much anyway...


でも、私の望むは一つだけ。それはランクがまだ歌いつづけてください。

私は本当にうれしいだけど、そのより大切はランクヘッドの幸せなんです。



Btw... セカイイチ (Sekaiichi) is a damn good band. Isshiki-san's recommendation.

Was kinda not too into it before coz they're quite Indie Rock (if not entirely). Of course, I like Indie rock but I am definitely more of a guitar rock person.

But anyways, have been overlooping their song 「夏の終わり、」 (Natsu no Owari) as of late. DAMN GREAT SONG YO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It has a very soft, cheerful tone to the whole thing... (for a song named end of summer.... it's quite uplifting lol).

ANYWAYS!!! They're a good band. Check the song out.


Anyways it's quite amazing, Odaka-san has been posting a blog almost everyday since the beginning of this year, he's only missed like 3 or 4 days in the past 2 months. Is this his new year's resolution???? Coz it really seems like it! He did mention in one of the new year's post that he had wanted to post more last year because he wanted to record the events and the feelings but he always failed to do it and he hopes to do it more this year.... So kinda like a new year's resolution, no??? Coz it's really been almost EVERYDAY he has a post. Even if it's one line!!! "I'm tired after the live today, so see you tomorrow"... Wth...

もっと聞いてきださい~




夏の終わりに、- セカイイチ



side note on the pop-up:
Actually if ODK-san looked properly, the card is not really that well made yo. At least, I don't think so. It was helluva try tho, and it took ALOT ALOT ALOT of effort and care (for Elaine's standards or the lack thereof! hahahaha)...
Anyway, I used to much cellophane tape to tape down the legs of the layers, so when I glued the base to mounting board, there was too much air caused by the tape, and the base was not as firmly mounted as I would have liked it to be. Also, because of that, when the pop-up is opened, the stress of the layers begins to cause creases along the base. Damn I really hated that, coz it was ruining the whole damn pop-up.
Also, because this final version was a little different from the original prototype I had made, some of the layers (especially the hands of the "fans") were overlapping and therefore tearing at each other when you opened it. It was such a mess, I had to reinforce the vulnerable and most tear-able parts with small strips.
And because there are 4 layers to each side (and essentially 8 layers when you close the card), the layers were pushing each other down even more. I already had trouble trying to get the pop-up to actually pop-up 90 degrees, with the compounded pressure of layers pushing each other down (when closed), it was such a bitch trying to get the layers to come upright. Even in the end, I was totally dissatisfied with "Sou"'s side of the card. Because his figure was never in a 90 degree angle! All the pressure from being pressed down just made it impossible for it to rise 90 degrees when opened.
Aaaaaaaaaaa~~~ Sighhhhhhh.... Well... I tried my best, at the very least.... =(
Monday, February 09, 2009

Lunkhead Official Team and Official Goods Site!

OFFICIAL TEAM

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OFFICIAL GOODS STORE

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Alrite......... Well, does this mean they ain't breaking up?

Well, lets just hope so...

This news is late (sorry, I forgot to check the webpage for 2 days) but Lunkhead has just released their Official Team! I'm not too sure but it pretty much sounds like those exclusive band fan clubs where members can get special goods and CDs, as well as exclusive news and participation in events, oh, and also piority live tickets.

Yeah, I suppose, it's good news in the sense that this is confirmation that Lunkhead is really moving forward.... But I also feel that this is indication that Lunkhead is (finally) getting more commercialized and thus...... less personal、in a way, i suppose??? Or well, at least, they've just become LESS ACCESSIBLE.

I mean, I understand the concept of exclusive fanclubs where bands are really close to the fans, but doesn't that also mean exclusivity?

I guess I'm only saying this because I'm NOT in Japan, and it seems, to get that membership, I HAVE TO be residing in Japan....

Sigh, I feel bad and I DO NOT want to trouble any more of my Japanese friends for Lunkhead stuff AGAIN ANYMORE... So, I guess that's why I don't quite like it when bands make things so exclusive... It's harder to get in, I suppose...

Well anyway, ランク、おめでとうございます!It's still good news for the band, although not so much for fans like me, I suppose! But hey, we're fans, so.... the band is what's important, so!
Wednesday, February 04, 2009

あなたに会えた僕らは歌が歌えるよ

「ランクヘッドを愛し続けてほしい。
俺らもみんなを愛し続けるから。」

I guess, I'll leave with that line from Gouda-san.

I want you to continue loving Lunkhead.
Because we also continue loving everyone.

ありがとう、合田さん。


I think, even if Lunkhead continues, without Ryou, it's not Lunkhead anymore.

Still, I hope they will continue.

I hope they would continue because I realize that, we too, hang our dreams on the wings of their dreams. And when they can't fly, I feel as if we too, can't soar in the sky. And when they disspear, I feel that a part of us too, dissapears with them.


Lunkhead said they will go on. I hope they will. I want to believe in their vague words that I can only partially comprehend--

But part of me, in my heart, I just have a very bad feeling that they would probably just break up after the new album is released in June. I hope not, but, I feel it is very likely to be so....

Because Lunkhead is four people, Lunkhead is four highschool friends-- and when they are not that anymore, I think.... maybe.... You know? It's like atomic bonds.... When together, they're held tightly together almost inseperable.... But when one atom is split away, the entire structure just blows apart, seperates entirely apart like being as forcefully repelled by the inseperable bonds that once held them together.

Get what I mean?

Odaka-san, didn't you say in live over and over again?

「終わりじゃなくて、はじまりだ。」

Why does this feel like the end, when you said, it was only the beginning?


Ryou was really great when I met him. I think he was the most friendly of the lot, even though we couldn't communicate at all. But he was very friendly, and he was very helpful. When I wanted my CD cover to be signed by everyone in the band but Yoshitaro was not around, he actually brought me and Tsuyoshi to be able to meet with Yoshitaro at their van. Then when we didn't have a pen for Odaka-san to sign the CD cover, Ryou went back inside the live house to get a pen for us. Thank you.

Also, Ryou, it will always be your words I remember during the live at Shinjuku LOFT for Lunkhead FORCE special release live. On the rooftop, the whole day it was going to rain, but it never rained although the clouds were very dark and looked like it was going to pour. After live, Ryou came back on staged and said something I could actually understand! haha, "Your force and our force combined has kept the rain up."

I think so.

And I want to believe.

And I want to keep in this dream with all of you- me, the fans and the band.


Considering that they almost broke up once in 2006 but they pull through and continued, continued long enough for them to give me a dream, for them to make a dream of mine to come true, thank you.

And I guess............. as sad as it would be...... as torn apart as wewould be....... as much as a part of our hearts would die with the end of their dream too......

still...

across this universe, our planets in our orbits in this galaxy, you and the cosmos...

for that one moment, in that one dream, in these songs you have given to us, to me, that has moved me with the beauty of your melodies, in all the moments that those songs have kept me through the days and nights in the past 3 years...

....... あなたに会えてよかった。



Haih... I don't think I was this depressed when Finch broke up or when Blink-182 broke up and when Taking Back Sunday almost broke up.....

Ah well... TBS pulled through, didn't they? Looks like completely new band, but they're still there. Finch completely broke down but in the end got back up together again, didn't they?

Oh well....

As in the words of Komorebi... 「悲しいけれど生きていける」
Tuesday, February 03, 2009

RYOU IS LEAVING LUNKHEAD!!!!

SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!! IS THIS THE DISSOLUTION OF LUNKHEAD!!!!!!!!!

FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

INCREDIBLY SAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



みんなに聞いてもらわないといけない大切な話があります。
LUNKHEADと僕についての話。2009年4月以降の活動に関する話です。

結論を先にお話すると、僕はこれまでのようにLUNKHEADの活動全てに携わることが出来なくなります。

ライブに制作、キャンペーンや取材など、バンドに関する活動は様々なものがあります。これまでと比べて、そのそれぞれについてどの程度の変化が生じることになるのか、現時点で具体的なことは決定していません。

例えばライブに限定した話をすれば、僕がステージに立ち、ドラムを叩く頻度はこれまでに比べて確実に少なくなると思いますが、僕がステージに立たない時、LUNKHEADがどのようなスタイルでライブをすることになるのかについてはまだ不明であるという具合です。
4月以降、それら様々なことについて、文字通り、手探りで模索しながら進んで行くことになります。

一般的に考えておそらく理解しづらいであろう、このような活動方針をLUNKHEADが採用した理由を、文章で説明することはとても難しいのだけど、それでも、応援してくれるみんなに対しては、可能な限り伝える努力をしなければいけないと思うのです。

僕には挑戦したいことがあります。

今、そのことにしっかりと向き合うことができる時間が必要だと考えました。僕自身のために、今、信じる道を進むことをしなければならないと考えました。
このままでは、これから先、笑顔で音楽を続けることが難しいと考えました。そして、その迷いは間違いなくバンドにとってマイナス要素となると考えました。

去年の10月のことです。現在・未来・自己実現、その全てと前向きに且つ冷静に向かい合って導きだした僕の考えをもとにメンバーと相談を重ねた結果、僕は一度LUNKHEADを完全に脱退するということを決断しました。

その後、年末にかけて、メンバーやマネージャーのボビーと何度も何度もミーティングを重ねました。
メンバーそれぞれのこれから。LUNKHEADのこれから。
いろいろな事を話し合いました。

その結果、それでもLUNKHEADは前に進むことを選びました。
それどころか、そこに僕の居場所を留保してくれました。
脱退とは違う、僕の考えを最大限に尊重してくれた、その上で、これからも共に走り続けるという道を提示してくれました。
「少しずつ、新しいスタイルを創っていけばいい。より自由に、より柔軟に、これからはLUNKHEADのドラマー石川龍というよりもLUNKHEADの石川龍として活動していけばいい。」
温かかった。こんな自分勝手な僕を必要としてくれることが本当に本当に心から嬉しかった。
やれるだけやってみよう。そう決意しました。

現在、6月に発売されるアルバムに向けて、レコーディングが順調に進んでいます。
詳細な日程は発表できませんが、夏以降に、僕が参加するスケジュールも少しずつ決定しています。

だから、これは脱退宣言のような発表ではありません。
LUNKHEADはこれからも、これまで以上に精力的に活動を続けます。
LUNKHEADはこれからも、想像し、創造して、みんなと一緒にあり続けます。
4月以降、僕とLUNKHEADの関わり方という点で変化が生じることになりますが、LUNKHEADのメンバーはこれまで通り、小高・山下・合田・石川の4人です。

LUNKHEADをこれからも、どうぞよろしくお願いします。
LUNKHEADをこれまで以上に、どうぞよろしくお願いします。

LUNKHEADは永久に不滅です!

         LUNKHEAD 石川 龍

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