ひとりの夜もそばにいようぜ　君と僕の歌を歌う

So nigel left today...... actually he's leaving in about an hour........ probably left by the time i actually press click and post this up.....

Hummmmm.... I dunno........ I'm sad he's leaving coz there's no nigel around anymore to joke with or be teased by or to do things with.

And actually, also, I feel sad and kinda having this nostalgic feeling coz it feels like with his leaving it's the end of a phase in my life.... The phase of my life that started when I started work at MCKL back in January.... Somehow I feel like Nigel's departure is like the bookend to that phase in my life, when i first started work there in January.


I remember when i first sat in the conference room and Ms Moey just hired me, and one of the first things she told Mrs. Tan was "and pass her Nigel's number"--- BAAAAHHHHH i had a bad feeling about it from that moment on! hahahahaha.

Anyway, i was listening to my playlist today, and I suppose the songs that reminds me the most about those early days is Lunkhead's Sakura Biyori....

It was back in Feb/March and I just got to know Nigel then... and it was when Mayuko came to visit (I think i met Nigel the first time on OB Nite Feb 15th and Mayuko came around Feb 18th). It was during midsemester break and I was asked to go to college everyday to "do meet up with Nigel to do Vision". Memory is abit fuzzy now, but I think I remembered I lost my IC and all that stuff and Nigel knew and I was complaining to him about it and Daniel was teasing me about it-- but I did meet up with Nigel in that three weeks........ a total of probably...... TEN MINUTES.... WTH.

Anyway, Mayuko bought me the Sakura Biyori single when she came, so that whole period in time, I was listening to Sakura Biyori (I think 90 plays in 1 week)... So it really marked that part of my life... When u know, going to college in the morning was so tranquil and nostalgic and beautiful, i suppose, cast off in this pale shade of sunlight in the morning as i drove and walked through Brickfields....

I remember I was listening to alot of Lunkhead at that time, and I was also doing the fanmail abit for Lunkhead.... That was all around March/early April.... I remember I asked Nigel to write the address for the fanmail for me.... and he told chee woh that i was crazy coz "she ask me to write the address then she wanted to write his name herself... wth"

I remember chasing Nigel alot also....... to do like... WORK. Coz he was always running away from me. And also he never does what I ask him to do... I think there were a billion times I have written those "NIGEL PLEASE DO THIS" notes... and out of the 5 on the list, only 2 or 3 would be done and only partially. wth =_=

I remember once i chased him to the canteen, once chased him till i stalked him out at the chem lab, once chased him down to the basketball court... Until their trials when I think he stopped bothering to run away..... coz for some reason at that period, whereever i walked to, HE WAS ALWAYS THERE... Like I'd go up to the libaray and he'd be there... I walk out of the library and we're done with our 5 min meeting, we'd bump into each other again 5 mins later... Or when I walk out of the staff room, i'd see him and his friends at the corridor.... Or once, when I finished my meeting with him, he went out to eat, I went to the staffroom... And just when i came out and I thought "hmm want to ask Nigel this"... I popped into the student lounge nad THERE HE WAS... i rememeber him saying "Wth!! I just got back man! like just sat down 5 seconds!".... DUDEEEE finally our radar was honed in on the target!

Anyway, also... why they mean so much to me was also coz... This was all around April... like midApril around April 12... And I remember I was really depressed about the direction of my life at that time, and I was just really depressed u know.....

But it was also around then that I got to know Nigel and his friends... First was Chee Woh...

I remember that weekend I was deprssed and wrote and email to Nigel about youth and all... And I remember the Thursday after that weekend I totally didn't see Nigel and I told Mrs. Tan that he probably didn't come to college... On Friday i finally saw Nigel in the library with his friend and he told me that he WAS in college... but he thought I wanted to see him on Thurs, so he ran away from me and Mrs Tan altogether.

I remember then, I had the Lunkhead cellphone strap on my phone and Nigel asked "what the hell is LUNKHEAD?" and I remember Chee Woh who was with him at that time, answering "it's a japanese band"... and I immiediately pounced on him for his MSN email wuahahahahahaha.

Anyway... from there CW and i started to hang out abit... The first time was me taking him and CHi CHing home........ I remember like, I think, by this time they (Nigel and CW) were insulting me quite abit already hahahaha...

Anyway it's a whole LOAD of memories from then on... Like the first time we were in the student lounge and talking about BLEACH with CW and Ken... and I remember cw was swinging around this wooden stick and we were like "bankai" here and there... Then Nigel was insulting us about animes being cartoons..... LO AND BEHOLD, a week later, he downloaded Bleach, was watching it and wanted the whole load so i pinjamed him Dez's copies and he finished 76 episodes in 3 days........ Not to mention, he fell sick after that hahahaha... and thus... VISION was left unfinished hahahahaha. Mannn if Vision screws up... i think the both of us combo together brought it to hell..!

Anyway... then i remember they ALWAYS insulted Lunkhead as "shithead" and also I remember cw saying to me about the fanmail "AS IF THEY ARE GONNA READ IT or even GET IT. they probably get like TONS if they do."

And i remember meeting Ken once or twice and call him the "good one"...... NOOOOOOO he's not but, well, u know, actually, he quite is.

I remember i was in the student lounge damn lot from then on hahahahaha.... Yeah.... PRODUCTIVITY WENT DOWN BY LIKE 75% and I THINK IT'S STILL STUCK AT THAT DECREASED LEVEL!! WUAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA..... But you know..... I got to know them more, and this whole "ride" started really... around April 19th... Right at that time I really felt depressed about life... it was like just right after that weekend I wrote and sent that email to Nigel that I got to know them.... and they saved me, you know at that time... and opened up this chance for me to live this life, experience these experiences that I have in the past 5 months... And, you know, it's all been great...!


Then I think... I got to know Kheng Li... It was their last day of school "officially"... Or I think it's the day we handed over the Ed Board... I think it was like May 25th or something and we had a meeting for the new board... Nigel was really shy and refused to come up in front to talk... I remember we were chatting abt the meeting the night before and he was asking if i was gonna be there and all coz he didn't wanna go at it alone... TURNS OUT I WAS THE ONE CONDUCTING THE MEETING... and he just sat behind with Ken and kept teasing and disturbing..... We were using Ms Lim's class and damn i can just imagine them in Ms Lim's class causing trouble hahaha...

Then I remember, cheng dar calling me "penguin" coz i looked like one =_=

Then I got to know the juniors... and I got to know Vince also during their study break...... (wuahahaha using him to get Nigel to give me stuff!!!)

Although well... NIGEL TOTALLY DIDN'T chill out till like after his exams finished... He was SOOOOOOOOOOO damn tempremental before I came back from Japan... Like he'd NEVER reply SMSes and TOTALLY avoid me sometimes (TO AVOID VISION WUAHAHAHAH).... then when i came back from Japan... MIRACLE! I sms him and cw when i got to KLIA and he ACTUALLY replied back something good wuahahah and said he'd meet me in college the next day... WTH!!! Nigel annoucing his presence!!! MIRACULOUS! hahahaha....

Anyway... I guess VISION gone, he was WAYYY more chilled la...

And well... the rest is history!

BUT ANYWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

The point to all these is that............ I guess that's why Nigel means something to me, or is important to this whole period of my life....

All i can say is that, all these things... all these memories... from Vision failure hahahahha to all the times in the student lounge, to all the mamaks, A&Ws, pasar malams, parties, Wii, Burger King, McD, CC, BBQ nite, Grad Nite, Sports Carnival, Movies, KLIA, long rides to nowhere...... These were all what made working in MCKL and the past 9 months since returning from America and working in MCKL, these are what made this whole time so great... and memorable, you know, and a period in my life I do not regret because I got to meet all these great people, and experience such wonderful things with them....... And you know, I feel,.... It was all from NIGEL.... because he really was the first student and ONLY A Level student I knew... and from him, i got to know his friends and got to be part of this awesome crowd, know these awesome people, and lived these awesome events... It's all from Nigel you know.... Because he was the first, because he was the catalyst, and because he was the one who made ALLL these other thing possible....

And all i can say is well.... Thanks, Nigel... Thanks.


My regret right now? Is that I didn't go to the student lounge on Monday when Nigel came to coll.... We were at the canteen then we went upstairs and he went to the student lounge... I thought I'd leave him there abit.... I didn't check my phone but later I saw he sent me an SMS asking me to go to the lounge.... It's the last time that'd ever happen you know, and I know how life works out... You should always seize whatever moments life presents to you, because u know, second times never do come again....

But i don't regret.. Went to midvalley after college to meet him there... I was really tired but that's what i told myself... I knew well enough that when phases past, u can never relive a past... So whatever moments that come, we should take it... And did that...

Then we went to pasar malam that night with Kheng Li and had ramli after that...

Then yesterday we went out again for Ramli with CW and KL... just sat in the car outside 7-11 eating ramli and hehehehehehehehe insulting nigel over his being so soft when it comes to his girlfriend hehehehe... and also about him crying when he was looking at his 3 year old cousin play... I love what cw said.. damn great! "if she gave u a rock u'd also say it's soft, fluffy and nice" hahahahahahahahaha DAMN GREAT CW!!!!

Anyway.... today went over to Nigel's house around 5..... to get my CDs back and also to give him the Adobe CD....... just stood around watching the files transfe and watching him pack... Kinda awkward coz his mom and dad was there and u know laaaaaa all the fussing abt kids before they leave home hehe... And also his grandpa came over...

But anyway.

So yeah.

Goodbye boss/honey/ki-shen/"favorite person"/Nigel hahaha...

K la, it's been great.... I suppose, it's abit different now...

Kinda sad not just a phase passing but... well.... No more nigel to sms =( and DANGGGG he's been the only one replying my SMS lately and actually SMSing me about stuff!! aaaaaaaaaaa!! TRAGIC! hahahaha miraculous more like it! ;)


Anyway, gem beneath the mud and $h!t huh? Well, it's more than a gem =) Really, there really is much much more... =) ............. LIKE CRYING NIGEL!! wuahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhaha hehehehe damnn kenot stopp laughing lleeeeee he really got a weak spot! hahahahaha a REALLYYY weak spot to add to that hahahahaha

K la jokes side... =)



ONE MORE GOODBYE TO GO: SEAH MIN KEN! -a.k.a. the "good" one!-

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO i went to buy Murakami books today and I perchance across the Densha Otoko (Train Man) book!!!



I've known about the Densha Otoko story for awhile now. About this Otaku guy (Geek) who came across a really hot girl on the train and this geek didn't know how to ask her out and what to do and all taht coz he's a geek. So he goes on this BBS board (forum thingy) to seek advice from all the Otaku ppl who hang out there... And these people end up encouraging him, giving him tips, and advicing him on how to get this girl.

ANYWAY...

I ended up buying the book (fifty bucks!) coz it looked really interesting actually!! The book is like this direct translation from the BBS posts! So it's in the forum format!!!



IT'S A DAMNNNNNNNNNNNN FUNNY BOOK!!!!

Actually ok, Densha Otoko is quite funny himself especially when he's being in his loser mode!! But I think the highlight of the whole book and the story, really, is actually the reaction of the otakus on the BBS board!!! How they get like ALLLLLLLL OVERLY EXCITED and SOOOOOOOOOOO ENTHUSIASTIC and into Densha's Otoko's situation it's Hillarious!!!!!! Also, their use of those Shift JIS art/emoticons are just PRICELESS!!!!

I love the parts where they gear up and prepare for "battle" when Densha Otoko comes to the board to update them on the "date" and "progress" with the girl nicknamed Hermes. DAMN FUNNY!!!!!!!!





Can u see all the defeated persons? looks like this ＿￣○ <---- it's like a man on his hands and knees hahahaha. it's definitely a "book" i recommend, although, hahaha, it's not much of a book, it's actually like reading some forum. hahaha.

NEWAYS... some deeper thoughts into this light-hearted and touching story:

1) Actually I liked this book coz it showed a glimps into the Japanese BBS culture... It's nice to like really get a glimps into these "real" people's behavior, thoughts, feelings and culture.
That said... I think it's of course, WAYYYYYYYYYY better if we could read it in Japanese itself... I think TONS have been LOST IN TRANSLATION!!!

2) Actually, while i understand abit about the otaku culture/stigma in Japan, I think the book would be much appreciated by Japanese the most. Because, the book dealt alot with the otakus in the board cheering Train Man like a god, one of them, the otaku, actually managing to climb out from their dark corners of society and actually succeed and shine so magnificently. It's like, I guess, i couldn't relate how this guy's one success was like this magnificent victory for the otakus over the forces of "evil".

3) The book also let me to think about the whole, "if you want to score a girl/guy, you must frist change yourself.".... I never liked that concept coz, I think, if you want someone to love you, it should be for who you really are, not who you're trying to be.... I dunno... But like, the whole fact that once the otakus on the board got Train man to call the girl and he scores a date, they tell him how to change his dressing and how he looks and everything... I guess that IS quite essential since if he DOES look TOTALLY like a geek, that can't be good either.... But he does go through this transformation.... But it's quite obvious that the girl did like him the way he was.... Although, yes, to foster a feeling of "liking", I think the girl would not have fell for him if he looked like an Otaku... I suppose to get the princess, you can't keep looking like the frog u know!

4) Webculture:....... Lately I've been reading alot of these stuff about the internet being part of the storyline, ESSENTIAL part... I guess the trend is changing alot... And, I think.... Well....... while sitting in front of the PC ain't all taht great, I think it does offer some help and support to all the otakus out there in the world haha.

5)....................... Jarod told me that the Train Man in the movie was unbearable damn loser... But reading the book, actually I think the Densha Otoko guy is quite not a damn loser geek. He actually doesn't post much on the board even when like the others are DYINNNNNNGG and waiting for him to post. Also, only at the begining was he a real nervous wreck, which was undertandable, actually.... But it was only for that one night/one chapter... After that, he was damn suave if you ask me!!!


OVER ALL... I think this is a damn funny book to read.... A great insight into the minds and reactions and the thoughts of losers in the world, or seemingly losers in the world... It's damn wonderful to look at their reactions, all the battle scenes were priceless... and also some jealousy among them... hahaha
It's a really really touching story... Not just about the guy and the girl.... which REALLY reads like a fairy tale, actually, but also about the friendships and bond formed among these "annoymous" posters on the BBS board.

It's always nice to feel like you belong somewhere and you're part of something bigger than yourself =)




Here's a link to the original posts in Japanese:

http://www.geocities.co.jp/Milkyway-Aquarius/7075/trainman.html

This website was mentioned in the "book" itself... Well duh... Someone in the forum complied all the threads dealing with Densha Otoko and put it into this website... The flash the dude made in the geocities page was also mentioned in the book....

It's all in Japanese.

GREAT SUCCESS PEOPLE!!!!!!

I MANAGED TO MAKE A WIKI PAGE FOR LUNKHEAD!!!!!!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lunkhead

HOOOOOORRRRAAAAYYYYY~~~~~~~~~~~~~

WOWOWOW!!! Just type LUNKHEAD in the search box for the English wiki and it takes you STRAIGHT to the page!! wowowowow!! GREAT SUCCESS!!!! LUNKHEAD ON WIKI!!!

Alright... I suppose now we just need more English speaking people to be interested in going to that page~! Then that'd mean MORE Lunkhead fans! HOOORAH!

Need to put in more content tho.... But the lack of comprehending Japanese has hindered that intention.... hmmmmmmm!

hmmmm.... actually i am abit paranoid and scared of posting the picture of the Iranian President Mahmoud Ahmadinejad on dis blog for the fear that I would be seen as an Iran sympathizer and be denied a US visa should i apply for one in the future.... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! pls!!

ANYWAY... i'm posting this coz...

AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO THINKS JOHN NOLAN REALLY LOOKS LIKE THE IRANIAN PRESIDENT GUY?????

LOOK!





DUDE, you REALLY DON'T think they look the alike???? Dude they have the same face shape, they have like same goatee, they have like the same type of sunken eyes, dude they even have the same sort of haircut!!! NO??????

ワンマンツアー2007「ジェットストリームアタックチャ〜ンス!!」東名阪追加決定！

11/10(土)　名古屋ELL 11/25(日)　心斎橋CLUB QUATTRO 12/08(土)　LIQUIDROOMebisu *FINAL 2DAYS 12/09(日)　LIQUIDROOMebisu *FINAL 2DAYS 【チケット料金】3,000円(tax in)D代別 【一般発売】9/09(日)

Soooooooooo~~~~~~~

I forgot to mention, but I am making another needlework thingy for Akio again this year wuahahahhaha...

This time, it's cross stitch!

I'm making a pig motive and Akio's name in Hiragana. It's gonna be made into a small pillowcase! (don't ask me why pillowcase. But if not that, then what then???)



Dunno why but i felt like cross stitching lately... It's actually a great stress reliever...

So anyways, bought the directions and materials in atria on Sunday, been sewing all week!

I ran out of thread so i couldn't finish it tonite, but here it is so far!




I had to come up with the directions for the Hiragana "Akio"... It was abit hard... I'm satisfied with the "A" but I don't quite like the "ki" and I think the "o" is not round enough.... I'm gonna tidy up the stitch for "ki" but I think I'm gonna leave "o" as it is, since it does look like "o" just abit... not round enough haha.


Since it took me like 1 week to finish this and it's WAYYYYYYYYYYYYY cheaper than knitting!!!!!.... I was thinking if i am enthusiastic enough, maybe I could stitch 1 for Tsuyoshi and Noah too................. errrrrrr... for Christmas... It'd be nice... Or maybe I should knit Noah a scarf... But i'd have to rebuy my needles since i lost it! dang!

I dunno... we'll see!!!!!!

It's kinda nice and great stress reliever!!!!!

HERE for the FIRST PROJECT AKIO: Knitted Scarf.

And yes, again, why Akio? Because I know he's the 1 person I can trust that if I made something and gave it to him, he would be happy to receive it... And he'd appreciate it and not spit on it or like get freaked out or whatever (well he hasn't so far, so lets hope not)...

Actually, Akio has never dissapointed me that way... Because no matter what, he always managed to see my intentions of doing what I do and not misunderstand it... He hasn't so far anyway...

Like the scarf, I actually asked him when i met him in Japan if he actually used it and he said he did!!!! hahahahahah.. REALLY??? My goshhhhh~~~ Considering that maybe, I myself might even think twice before wearing it out!! hahaha.

Also, when i was in Japan and i met Akio... He was telling Mayuko and I how he only ate 1 meal a day because he always came back too late to cook dinner and he was too tired.... And i wish i could take care of him lol!!! But anyway, i thought i'd buy him like a food gift card or something... But they didn't have those in Japan and the closest that they did have to gift cards was cash vouchers....

So anyway, I really wanted to get it for him, to ask him to use it to buy himself a meal or something... Coz too bad, i can't cook nething for him (even if I could... i don't think he should eat it!! haha). HOWEVER, Mayuko warned me against buying the cash vouchers coz she told me "it's okane yo!"... It's actually money. So giving it would be like giving money to Akio and she thought that's not appropriate.... and she said "he needs time to eat, not money to eat"

BUT ANYWAY! I bought it and asked Mayuko if she could post it to him for me. So i wrote a letter and sent the "money" to him...

A few weeks after I got back from Japan, I saw Akio online the first time in MONTHSSSSSSSSSSS and he messaged me and told me thank you very much for the gift and he said he is happy and he will use it to have a good meal soon!!!

So... well, that's why... I guess... for some reason, that way, Akio has understood me time and time again, and understood, you know, my intentions and I really thank him for that... for not misunderstanding what I intended to be something good...

Thank you, Akio =)

それでも歌いたい。歌わせてください。

Still, I want to sing. Please let me sing.



It's so beautiful... or at least, inspiring. Yoshitaro was writing about his thoughts on the world and all that is happening in it... and how easy it is for him to just say that he his helpless to change anything... yet what is then the value of the songs that such a man sings?

Yet, still, he wants to sing... Please let me sing...

I think that's very beautiful...

Then... well... sing on... =)

Songs....
Tsubaki
Lunkhead

it's abit sad but....... it's abit sad to feel this but, it's sad that I feel that Michelle's the only real friend i have and funny thing is that she's 8000 miles away.

i feel like i've not treated her as I should but instead i have casted pearls before swines.

I feel very dumb and such a fool coz I always waste my effort on the things that don't matter when I could have gained so much more and be much better off if I had just been more selfish and not have given so much, coz what for? In the end it's just spit on and forgotten, and no one actually cares-- not enough anyway.

You should always withold love and affection and care where and when it's not asked for. Instead, give it to those who really cares back for you and who is WORTH the effort and the love...

Because I look back at all these and all i can say is that I was a fool, I am a fool... and it was all for naught.

Sometimes, there comes a time (usually at times like these) that you realize who your friends really are and who your friends aren't. It's a saddening realization but.... sometimes I wish it speaks more about the other person than it does about me, that at least... you're not the selfish one in the end.



I was just writing a text (sms) just now.... felt really really down and lonely and i felt i needed someone... i needed a friend, needed to know, at least, someone cared......... I scrolled through the list to find someone i could send it to whom i knew would care or had the time to care and, you know, I couldn't find anyone.. Not a single one....

Except...

Michelle.

You know, actually..... sadly to say..... she's actually called me more often in the past months than every other person on my list.


I don't know......



I remember... there was once... back in Northridge... I felt really down one day.... probably because of some guy haha... But i remember texting Michelle that day... Just a passing text you know, like you would just text to your friends "Feeling a little depressed. wish you were here."

And DUDE, that night, although she finished work at 10pm, had to work again the next morning, she still drove 1 1/2 hours, 90 miles, from Anaheim to Northridge just to eat at Denny's with me for an hour or so. What the hell man... but THAT was what she did. It's like driving from KL to seremban to have mamak with a friend. Dude... I will always remember that... and I will always love Michelle for that.....


And I guess that's why, it is after all that she has done for me, her love her care her phonecalls, her wishes, her love, you know.... That I know, that sitting here 8000miles away at 12 am feeling lonely as hell feeling like such a fool that I have wasted my affections on worthless things.... I still had ONE friend in her... even though she is so far away, even though we weren't from the same country or same culture or same skin color... At least.... I am still her friend she cares about. That means alot to me.


This is not to say i have no friends... but u know... It's really really realy very very comforting for me to know that I have Michelle at least...

Thanks dude... And I love you... And I miss you... and you know how much I wish I was back there and we could do stuff again.... It was a life really, a life i really wish could have last a lil longer...

GREAT FAILURE AGAIN....

I spent 12 hours doing ONE FRIGGING ICON.... Because i couldn't decide on waht i want.... I'm still not happy with this one...



The Japanese word that "ODAKA" I scanned it in from the autograph i got from Yoshitarou... hehe.



Yeah same pics I know... But i don't think I can use these for the icon challege coz it's a group pic not an individual pic... But i dunno lets see...

d "LUNKHEAD" is a scan from the handdrawn postcard I got from Lunkhead when I bought their album.


previous batch:

K......... great failure....... 2 days 3 icons....





Also i have changed to a 50 Icon challenge on Livejournal... The themes are easier too... 40 artist choice, and 10 themed icons... i think that should be doable... but i do have only 4 months to complete them... Hmm..

Well... since i took d time wuahahahha to romanize Tsuki to Tenohira for cw, i might as well post it up also...

Kanji, romaji, translation (thanks Norika!)


Lunkhead - 月と手のひら

すっかり遅くなったな
月がもうあんなに高くなってる
君はもうそろそろ眠くなるはずなのにそれでも
星のシャワーと夜の風が
君の頬を桜色に染める
はしゃいだ声、弾んだ息
街灯が創る二つの影

手をつないでうちに帰ろう
四月とは言っても夜はまだ冷えるから
風邪引かないように
少し急いで

色々話したいことが
たくさんあるはずなのに
ひとつも言葉にはならないから
強く手をにぎる

高台から望む街は
窓の数だけ光る命
みんなきっと少しだけ
人より幸せになりたいだけ

手をつないでうちに帰ろう
四月とは言っても今日は特に冷えるから
風邪引かないように
手をつないでうちに帰ったら
温かいミルクを飲もう
夜はまだ長いからいい夢を見れるように
少し甘くして

いつか君のその手は
違う誰かを幸せにする
その未来へ君を送り届ける
手をつないで

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sukkari osokunattana
tsuki ga mou annani takakunatteru
kimi wa mou soro soro nemuku naru hazunanoni soredemo

hoshi no shawaa to yoru no kaze ga
kimi no hoho o sakurairo ni someru
hashai da koe, hazunda iki
gaitou ga tsukuru hutatsu no kage

te o tsunaide uchi ni kaerou
shigatsu to wa ittemo yoru wa mada hieru kara
kaze hikanai you ni
sukoshi isoi de

iroiro hanashitai koto ga
takusan aru hazunanoni
hitotsu mo kotoba niwa naranaikara
tsuyoku te o nigiru

takadai kara nozomu machi wa
mado no kazu dake hikaru inochi
minna kitto sukoshi dake
hitoyori shiawase ni naritai dake

te o tsunaide uchi ni kaerou
shigatsu to wa ittemo kyou wa tokuni hieru kara
kaze hikanai you ni
te o tsunaide unchini kaettara
atatakai miruku o nomou
yoru wa mada nagai kara ii yume o mireru you ni
sukoshi amakushite

istuka kimi no sono te wa
chigau dare ka o shiawase ni suru
sono mirai e kimi o okuritodokeru
te o tsunaide

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It’s already so late
The moon is so high up there
You should be feeling sleepy by now but

The shower of the stars and the night wind
makes your cheek the color of cherry blossom.
Your happy voice, your excited breath
Two shadows made by street lights

Let’s hold hands and go home
Even it’s April, it’s still cold at night
I don’t want you to catch a cold
Let’s hurry up a little.

There are so many things I want to talk about with you,
But none of them are coming out of my mouth
So I hold your hand stronger

The town we look down from the light house is
filled with as many bright lives as windows
Perhaps everyone wants to be a little bit happier than other people

Let’s hold hands and go home
Even it’s April, today is especially cold
I don’t want you to catch a cold
When we get home holding hands
Let’s drink a cup of warm milk
We can make it a bit sweet so you can have a nice dream in this still long night.

Someday, your hand will make someone else happy
To that future I will deliver you
Holding hands



I still think there's an essense to the song that's lost in translation... It's a very sweet song, and perhaps sweeter when you actually understand it in Japanese... like the words Yoshitarou used....

Especially the parts like "te wo tsunaide..." the way he played around with the phrase at the end....
Also the part "ii yume wo mireru you ni"... I think the sweetness of that part is also lost in translation to "have a nice dream"...
And the part "takadai kara nozomu machi wa, mado kazudake hikaru inochi, minna kitto sukoshi dake hitoyori shiawase ni naritai dake".... I don't quite understand this part in Japanese but I think the essense that Yoshitarou was trying to capture in those lines probably has a stronger feeling and meaning than it sounds in English...

Soooooooooooooooooooooooo

FOR SOME REASON, I signed up for the 100 icon challenge and i chose ODAKA YOSHITAROU!!!! 小高芳太郎~

Bad tho... coz i dun think i have 100 pics of him... Actually much less 100 pics that can be made into icons!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~~~~~~

Neways, I made some icons last nite...... Have to relearn everything wth... =_=

This is in the order I made them....





ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

1 for Mr. Capy!!!

wawawawawaaaaa!!

SO!

Online shopping is GREAT!!!!

Was VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY pleased with my purchases wuahahahaahah....

SOOOOO... My package from japan came yesterday wuahahahaah....





Heheeheheheh....

So i was damn pleased with it...

I got my beavers!!!!!!!!

OK LA CAPYBARA!!!




FOR NIGEL!!!!!

DAmn cuteeeeeee... actually I like this one the best too... But i got this for him... hehe...






Dis 1 is mine... But i might give this one to cw...






BABY KAPIBARA!!!





Damn cute dis 1.... I was planning to give dis 1 to cw... if not I can give him the bigger 1... heheheeh



CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~~~~~~~~~~~


BESIDES THAT!!!!!!!!

I AM ALSO DAMN PLEASED WITH ALL MY LUNKHEAD PURCHASES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I managed to get BOTHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Play at the Crossroads Cd1 AND Cd2 for only $50!!!!!! Limited Edition CDs wei!!!!!!!!!! AND ORIGINALS too!!! AND RARE!!!!!!

Dude!!! usually in other auctions, Per CD would go for AT LEAST 50 bucks!!! BUTTTTT for some reason, the one i got was for BOTH CD1 and CD2 and for some reason, the fans just stopped bidding at $40!!! I dunno why!!!!! It's actually ORIGINAL too!!!!!!!!










Besides that I also got LUNKHEAD MAGAZINE CLIPPINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN GOOD DEAL ALSO!! cause i ended up wid alot of clippings! I didn't think i got that many but apparently, I did!!!!

ANDDDDD

BEST DEAL OF ALL IS...


HALF NAKED YOSHITAROU PICS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


WUAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!


DUDE!!! I had bid on a previous auction for these and the price was liek 40 bucks!!! But i got this one and other clipping for only 5 bucks!!!!!!

GREAT!!!


DROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL PEOPLE DROOOOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!

ARM THY HEART!!!!!!!

FAINT NOT!!!!!!!







WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*FAINTS*

dude......................... I NEED A BOYFRIEND!

kkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk...................................

nothing happened dis week. so uneventful harhar.

Thursday nite pasar malam chow yang wid KL and CW....
1) bought my fav potato thingy
2) packed asam laksa and we went to me house to eat
3) Watched transformers again! Megan Fox is hot!

Friday stayed in bed all day wid KL watching Heroes... K.... somehow dat sounded inappropriate.....
0) pick KL...
1) watched epi 5 - 6
2) drove out buy McD, ate..
3) watched epi 7 - 8
4) ate.
5) watched epi 9 -10
6) ate
7) watched epi 11 - 13
8) ate
9) watched epi 14 - 16
10) sent KL home....... ate ramli hehehe


Saturday stayed in bed all day, sleeping... den at night went out wid CW...
------ Hmmm... actually it was quite a nice night... I was quite full so we drove around for abit... was just driving till i got hungry... So i wanted to drive to OUG, then cw said he wanted to go to Taman Desa to see Kevin's car, so we drove to Taman Desa. His car was not there... Then after that we drove to OUG... we got the idea of eating durians hahahahaha... so we hunted down some durians in Happy Garden then packed it. Wanted to eat it somewhere the go mamak... then I thought, ok, let's go to the 7-11 nearby Nigel's wheere we always go for ramli... So started driving there (crazy hor, from BU to Happy Garden to get durian then back to Taman Megah to eat d durian in front of 7-11 wth...)...
Then when we got to the 7-11, there were alot of cars parked there... so cw said go the the SS2's... so went there... packed also.. then he said to go to the Kelana Jaya station's... So we went there...
We parked la, then got a drink then sat in the car listening to TBS and eating durian... WTH RIGHT?????????????????????????????
den after that around 12:30 we started driving again la... drove around back down to Bukit Damansara.... talking (coz the music died by this time) and then went home...

Hmmm... it was quite nice la... nice moment u know, just sitting in the car outside sevens listening to music... YEAHHHHH i suppose it's nicer if we wnet up the jejantas to look at cars but............... TOO EMO WEI!!! wuahahahha (and dats something u wanna do wid SARAH, not Elaine Loh yo!! hehehehehe. CW: NOOOOOooooooooOOOOOOOOOOOooo!! AWAY FROM ME YOU EVIL FAT GIRL!)


Sunday today stayed in bed most of d day sleeping... and afternoon went out wid CW...
--- Went to d digital mall wid cw... FOR SOME REASON, i've not been to that area for the past 5 years, BUT, then suddenly within these few months i've been there more than half a dozen times! geez....
--- after we took cw's comp stuff home, dude took another mouliu drive around hahahahahahahha... drove from cw's hse to SS17... den wanted to try a shortcut... den after that, took another "short cut" back to cw's hse.... Dat's it... WTH!!! hahahaha



NEWAYS.... wow... i saw CW alot dis weekend! how lucky~~~ hawhawhaw... Haha but true oso ma... when he starts classes (tmr).. dats it wei... wun see him nemore.... =(

I dunno...

I guess d end is drawing near huh............ It's impossible to get everyone out together these days.... I only ever see Kheng Li and that's it or maybe CW..... I suppose... it's okay that things end somehow.... because that's part of how life goes... The thing that matters in all these is that you had fun and it was fun and most of all, you got to experience it to begin with...

We may never take another trip to KLIA with Ken and cw, we may never go to pasar malam together again with Nigel, cw, kl... We may never go watch transformers again or have A&W again wid ken, cw, nigel... We may never Wii again together like we did... (i bet we'd still dota tho! wuahahaha... actually even that...)... but it's fine... because u'll remember those moments, though slowly becoming vague with time... but as long as at that moment when you lived it, hey, part of this was mine... Like the stillness of the rain soaked night that blanketed the city last night... yeah, at least that there was that moment, and we lived it together as friends, and we were friends those moments, those nights, those times... I think that's what matters, that it happened, that we had it, that we shared it, in that moment, for that moment, for that night, in our lives...

I think, i guess, i want to believe that is what counts. that's what important. that's the point.

right?