ひとりの夜もそばにいようぜ　君と僕の歌を歌う

i hate to say this, but i really miss california.

actually, i really miss the life in california.

i miss having my friends around.

this sucks.

i really miss everyone back there.

it's shitty. like today, all i want is to go out for dinner with someone. Yet, fuck, there's actually NO ONE to go out for dinner with.

If i was in california, i'd call Norika right now. And if she's not free, I know i can call Caryn then.. If Caryn is at work and won't be off till 11pm, AT LEAST i know we can go eat Denny's by the Northridge Mall at 11pm. Or we can go to that taco stall down by White Oak. And if Caryn can't, i can still call Maya or Ai. If that fails, haha, i could always call Eileen and she can take me out for dinner either at a diner or at that chinese place by Reseda and Nordhoff. I miss her. I miss them all, really...

And if THAT fails, at least i could have taken the metro down to Hollywood to walk around and to eat at that Japanese place by the Kodak Theater. That would be nice. Or take the shuttle up to Universal City Walk to see the tourist and the people and to sit around eating Panda Express or something. The weather would be great in California by now.

I miss that you know. I miss that life.

And the saddest part of it is to know that THAT is over. That even when i go back to California in September, it's just gonna be a visit, it's not going to be home anymore...