into the void

yo, i'm home ;)

where have you run too so far away man? no work. are you in cali? ive been calling. but i guess you will re surface when you are ready. till then.
michelle brown 09.08.06 - 12:01 pm


And for this reason, I will always love Michelle!! hahaha she understand sooooooooooo welll!!!!!! "but i guess you will resurface when you are ready" I LOVE YOU!!!! You're so understanding!!!!!!!!!!!

I FEEL DAMN BAD AND TERRIBLE THOUGH!! i always do that to my dear friends, don't i? I rarely pick up calls unless i feel like it... Sometimes it's regardless of who's calling, i just.... don't talk! BUT MICHELLE!!! YOU UNDERSTAND ME AND I LOVE YOU TOO!!!!!!!

where have YOU been too??????????????

MISS YOU LOADS!

WILL SEE YOU LOADS now I'm back in CA!

i'm back in California. will be here till October 18th. Will be back Oct 19th.... BACK as in MALAYSIA as in FOR GOOD T_T

I don't know if i have internet connection while i am here. I hope I would....... or at least I'd have to go to the Uni's library for the comp....

NEWAYS... cya all soon.... I suppose... whoever "you all" are!


PURAKI ROCKS!


AKIRA ROCKS!

HE LOOKS SO FUNNY HERE!! damn i love akira cause he's just sooooo frigging funny ALL THE TIME!

RYUTAROU IS CUTE! woo!

Pensive as ever again eh, Ryutarou???? But always STILL as cute as ever ^-^

They're absolutely cute here!!! damn funny!!!

Ryutarou, as always, was really cute!!! he's so frigging adorable when he wants to be eh!!! But he's not like that all the time... Half the time at photoshoots he seems to be so serious!!!! But for these sweet child TV drawings with Akira, he's damn funny and cute!!!

I love the part where Ryutarou hits Akira on the head and the part where he pats Akira's chest to ask if he feels nervous (trans was from "is your heart okay?") . And Ryutarou is damn cute in the part where he mistakenly puts his hand in the box to take a paper but then stops cause he remembered they only needed to do one drawing... damn cute his reaction. hehehe.

Akira... is of course, always, damn funny!!!! His drawings are always so..... DIRECT! haha!

As for what Ryutarou was drawing and talking about, I think he's referring to this incident that he once wrote in his diary column:

Inuhebi e nikki - Entry 40

I've had many accidents in my life. But I've never gotten seriously hurt, not even when I flew off my bike and turned twice in the air before falling on the ground. Once when we were still indies we had an accident with Tadashi on our way home from the livehouse. I also had an accident on a field once while I was delivering pizza. The pizza got smashed and I was all covered with mud. But I never had serious wounds. Looks like I'm lucky.

When Tadashi and I had the accident, we were all covered with blood. We
went to Denny's [* a restaurant chain] like that, but I must have had a
concussion because I ordered two servings of spinach sautee. (laughs) I was
probably thinking that I had lost a lot of blood, so I have to eat something
that helps me get it back. I was really acting strange. I drank one coffee after
another and kept wiping the blood off my face with an oshibori. [* a hot towel you get before the meal to wipe your hands with] It was right after a concert, so we had makeup on, and the first thing I did was asking the waiters for an oshibori. They were really horrified.

Translation taken from: http://www.mikawawan.net/shindenzu/aomushi.htm

YEAP! it's been awhile... but i wanted to Blog about Plastic Tree!

Plastic Tree has alot of nicknames... In japanese you pronouce their name as "Purasutekku Turi".... so Naturally, like some japanese words... they like to shorten stuff... so Puraturi they're called sometimes... if you plastic tree fast.. u get purakuri....

Then there's also Pla... i read somewhere... and a few others...

THEN....Fans also also just call them PURA....



On one of their tours they used this sign .... as their "logo"....

The symbols there is the Japanese writing for "PURA" for plastic... It's the symbol that the japanese use for recyclable plastic materials (if u check some japanese stuff u have, you will see that sign there)...

So Plastic Tree used it as their symbol...

Anyway... the name Plastic Tree came from Radiohead's song Fake Plastic Tree.... But recently, apparently, Tadashi and Ryutarou revealed that they wanted a name that combined the element of something from nature and something manufactured.... So Plastic Tree...

SO ANYWAY!!!

My own personal nickname for them tho is PURAKI! ????? hehehehe...

Sorry i didn't follow the fans' nicknames... but i REALLY like Puraki!

?? - Pura in katakana following.... PURA...for Plastic...

? - ki in kanji.... for tree...

So.... it still follows the feel of their original intention right? A nickname that encompasses two opposite aspect... Pura, foreign word in katakana, and ki in kanji that is traditional hehehe


ANYWAY..... I told Fuji my OBSESSION with Plastic Tree and i told her my nickname for them PURAKI!

she said it's a very good nickname!! hehehe! She said that Japanese fans would like the nickname... ... hmm i wonder... But i really like it though!

PURAKI!

(please click to read the chapter)

RIN IS DEAD. TOTALLY DEAD.

RUMIKO TAKAHASHI IS UNPREDICTABLE and............ HEARTLESS!!

NO ONE EVER SAW THIS COMING. NO ONE!!!!!!! SERIOUSLY, NO ONE!!!

The person LEAST LIKELY to die would have been RIN (or maybe Naraku some might argue huh ;)). BUT TAKAHASHI REALLY KILLED HER OFF!!

WE NEVER SAW THAT COMING... i mean... seriously... who'd have thought she'd kill the one most innocent and the youngest and CUTEST and MOST LOVAVLE character in the entire series????

Some might hate Kagome, some might hate Kikyo, some might be neutral towards Sango, some might not like Shippou, some might hate Inuyasha's guts, some might not like Sesshoumaru's attitude but... c'mon... RIN???????????????

BUT OF ALL THE CHARACTERS......... TAKAHASHI KILLED HER!!!


sigh... My other thoughts on this chapter:

- So Rin cannot be revived anymore by Sesshoumaru.....

- Of course I thought the part Sesshoumaru dropped Tenseiga was so poignant... He actually gave up the sword for her... And this is in reference to chapter 468 where he tells Kohaku that his hands are meant only to wield a sword... So for the first time in his life, he dropped the sword to hold someone he cares about instead...

- Also referecing the same part in chapter 468... I thought it was also really poignant when Sesshoumaru picks up Tenseiga again to purify the dead.. He holds BOTH Rin and the sword... So i thought that's really significant, because, it's as if when he wield the sword together with a heart that cares for others and someone he loves, that's when he can truly uncover Tenseiga's true power.

- OF COURSE OF COURSE, the part I thought was like heart crunching (OK THE WHOLE FRIGGING CHAPTER WAS HEART CRUNCHING!!! I CRIED!!).... But the part I thought was really like "damnnnnnnn"...... was the part after Sesshoumaru drops the sword, and he's holding/hugging(??) Rin... and he thinks to himself "what's the point of strengthening the sword if it's in exchange for Rin's life?" .... I think that's just.... WOW.... For someone like SESSHOUMARU to think that.... it totally reflects how much Rin means to him....

FUCKING HELL WHAT A TERRIBLE FATHER TO MAKE HIS SON LOSE SOMETHING SO PRECIOUS TO HIM JUST TO TEACH SESSHOUMARU A LESSON OR TWO ABOUT HUMANITY!!!

C'MON!!!! IT DOES NOT MAKE SENSE TO TAKE AWAY THE ONE THING THAT CHANGED HIS HEART!!! NOW HE HAS NO ONE LEFT TO MAKE HIM MORE...... HUMAN!!!!!

shit. fuck.


My two sens:

I really see no way for Rin to live now.... I mean seriously.. At least the previous chapters, it wasn't HOPELESS like this now... But seems so... there are no more cards to be dealt except 1....

1) Next chapter... they bury Rin.
2) Next chapter... they just skip Sesshoumaru's story and go back to Inuyasha&co... and the next time we see Sesshoumaru... he's a changed man with a kick ass sword but Rin will not be there and the loss will not be talked about... <-- Shittiest option
3)........ SOMEHOW... the ONLY WAY LEFT... is that Sesshoumaru's MOTHER might have a way to save Rin........ I DOUBT IT BUT THIS IS THE SENARIO I AM MOST HOPING FOR!!

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In this chapter though, the way Sesshoumaru reacted to Rin's death... and also, the things he thought about (giving up tenseiga, not worth strengthening the sword at the cost of her life, his inability to save Rin in the end)... I think it goes to show that Rin was right about Sesshoumaru all along... That he is kind...

In my opinion, while she was still alive, Rin was the ONLY ONE who could see that Sesshoumaru has/can have a good heart... I think she was the one who knew his heart the best...

AND NOW SHE'S DEAD!!!!!!!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

PLEASE DON'T LET RIN BE REALLY DEAD!!!!!!!!

*sniff* *sniff*

the one who wins the fight ultimately belongs to the person who has most power.

in the end the richer will rule.
the smarter will conquer.
the more successful will be the winner.

whether they are right or wrong, whether both parties are equal or imbalance.


I actually feel really bad for my coworker. Even though sometimes he can be thick skinned and abit of annoying, in the end, he's a really good person at heart and would not do any harm to anyone intentionally. I feel really bad for him. Maybe even more so cause i was a bitch to him sometimes.
I mean he has his flaws but I think in his heart, he's a really good person. and I'm really sorry that because of his flaws sometimes, it's hard or people don't see the beauty that he posesses. I really feel sorry for him. I hope things get better for him...

Reasons why THIS GUY is fast climbing my Brilliant-people-i-totally-admire list:



full name: ?? ??? / arimura ryuutarou
d.o.b: march06, 1973 (he sure as HELL does NOT look 33! hellz)
birthplace: chiba (where plastic tree was born too, can u believe the coincidence? =P)
blood type: AB


ANYWAYYYYYYY back to the reasons why he is climbing up my good book fast is:


1) He wrote Aoi Tori (lyrics and music)... This got him ON the list. nuff said.


2) He wrote Yume no Shima. This got me to like him like: "WOW SHIT! HE'S BRILLIANT!"

??? - Yume no Shima - Dream Island/Island of Dream

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the devil came to me singing
"what kind of world do you dream of?" he asked me.
somehow, I can't even seem to seize a helping hand anymore,
solitude is my skill.
And I answered, "I don't really feel like I belong anywhere."
Such a beautiful day but it seems even my hope is turning to ashes,
how come I can't remember the spell that awoke me from my dream?

Where can I go, to throw away the tears in my eyes?
Glittering island of dream
where is it?
with the unburnable garbage, I want to rot away.
Glittering island of dream
let's go there together...


I really like this song because I loved how Yume no Shima (literally Dream Island/Island of Dream) was symbolically used in this song...

I found out that Yume no Shima is actually an artificial island off Tokyo Bay that is made up entirely of GARBAGE.

I like how, the Island of Dreams that he seemingly longs for (perhaps his "dream world" or "paradise" (answering the Devil's question)) is actually in real life an island of garbage... And maybe he's trying to say that sometimes our dream place, is in reality, really, a illusionary place that's built upon trash...

i think that's so beautiful...

And with that Ryuutarou REALLY REALLY went up my list!!!


3)







NUFF SAID FOR REASON NUMBER 3!


4) ?? - Inori

OK... so i bought their "Best Of" album yesterday cause i saw it in New York... And then I saw the last song on the Record "Inori".... Then at the bottom of the lyrics for the song I saw: "Words by The Book of Ecclesiastes."

AND I WAS LIKE HUH???? WHAT THE HECK?!

and I saw on the top that the music was actually that song TURN TURN TURN (you know that oldies song that goes "to everything, turn turn turn, there is a season turn turn turn"... it's based on the verses in the Bible from the book of Ecclesiastes)

AND THEN I SAW (in japanese of course): "JAPANESE TRANSLATION BY: Arimura Ryuutarou"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOSH! You could have struck me with a feather at that moment, i'd have toppled over!!

OH MY GOSH!! ISN'T HE BRILLIANT THEN???? I mean... OK, for ONE THING, don't you *kinda* NEED TO BE GOOD IN ENGLISH to be able to translate a text to JAPANESE??? How much more since it's actually lyrics/verses from the song/the Bible in this case!!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! SO THAT'D MEAN THAT RYUUTAROU'S ENGLISH SHOULD BE KICK ASS RIGHT???

OH MY GOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...

THERE GOES MAN.... MY HEART, THAT IS!


sorry but damnnnnnnnnn I'm just frigging IMPRESSED!!! THIS DUDE IS BRILLIANT!

let's say it together boys and girls............. "SUGOI~~~~~~~~~~~"

Ryuutarou looks GREAT here!!!!!!!! DAMN he's really cute here!! I really like!!! The whole video, not one bit he doesn't look cute!!! hehehehe... well usually, he's ok-ok but here!! oh mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng!!! damn!

MY HARD DRIVE IS DEADDDDDDDDDDDDD

ZENZEN DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!

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SAD!

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if you can read those words up there... So apparently... i finally found out what they mean... You see these japanese characters printed on plastic stuff (if it's manufactured in japan or is an electrotic item, etc)... It's suppose to be the short form of the word "plastic"... Who knows in Japanese Plastic is probably "purasutiku" or some weird ass like taht!! anyway.. it's been shortened to "PURA"!

SO ANYWAYYYYYYY BRINGS ME TO............

PLASTIC TREE!!!!!!!

PURAKURI (if u say it fast, it sounds like plastic tree =P)

ANYWAY... PURAAAAAAAAAAA

I LOVE THEM AT THE MOOOOOOOOOOOO I LOVE THEIR SONG AOI TORI!! IT MAKES ME GO CRAZY (i will blog about this more later)... BUT RIGHT NOW!! HERE'S PLASTIC TREE!!!!!!!!!



They're abit of a hit or miss band... I'm sorry to all the HARDCORE pura fans out there while i really do love their song... sometimes it's hard to find pictures where they are absolutely cuteeeeeeeeeeee!!

neways... here are some I really liked of them ^^!


RYUUTAROU!



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I might be biased... But I think Ryuutarou looks abit like Akio hahaha! I think so!!!!!!!

Well Ryuutarou is (sorry to all the Ryuutarou fan girls) cute buttttt... abit hit or miss sometimes... he's not HYDE u know what i mean?! HYDE u can never go wrong!! even on bad hair days and shitty camera angles, HYDE still looks immaculately beautiful hahahahaha

ANYWAYS! Ryuutarou still cute and the above pic is the Ryuutarou pic i love the most... hehe, he's damn cute there! MAKES ME WANNA HUGGLE HIM LIKE A DEGRANGED FAN GIRL =P

Anyway... when Ryuutarou sings, he kinda has this soft breath-y voice... like he's breathless sometimes hehe... BUT ANYWAYS.. but when he talks he actually talks in this really cute high pitched voice... really cute, like a little.. boy/girl???

Anyway... watch this video of this interview! he's really cute here hehe... like a little school boy! SO POLITE!



ANYWAY!! YOU CANNOT NOT be LOVABLE with a cute face like that, such a cute voice, such brilliant musician... AND A SHY BOY TOO!!! surely... Ryuutarou is definitely cute!!! hehehehe... DAMN, i will ALWAYS be biased towards him no matter how he looks or wahtever because i LOVE HIS SONG!! I will always be biased towards him based on Aoi Tori alone ANDDDD I think his voice is great when he sings all these beautiful songs that just CAPTURES my heart and make it wanna burst!


AKIRA!!!!!!



????????(they always katakana his name... don't ask why i don't know!)

Actually... of all the members, hehe, i like Akira alot! Like one of the fan pages wrote "I love Akira the best although of course, this is not to say that Ryuutarou does not have his lovable qualities" hehe..

ANYWAY... I like Akira in the band because he is DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNN FUNNY!!!! he's like the prankster in the band and DUDE, you can NEVER go wrong with THAT! The rest of the band (including Ryuutarou) looks like they are DAMN SHY... Apparenly, they ARE (although less so now)... EXCEPT for AKIRA of course!

I liked watching all those Akira clips on YouTube cause REALLY!!! he's really hilarious!!!!

AND, i think of all in the band, he's the most good looking one ;)



i is NOT lying yo!



damn this man is COOL!

OK.... Ryuutarou can be cute but Akira is hands down, good looking... AND the only one in the band that is NOT "miss" most of the time... Even with bad camera angle and bad hair days, it's more likely for Akira's picture be cool hahahaha

ANYWAYS!


Anyway, here are some pics of the bands I thought we really cool.. THe drummer is cute too... But also abit hit or miss sometimes ;) Akira rulz BUTTTTT i WILL ALWAYS BE BIASED TOWARDS RYUUTAROU and have my heart swooooooooooooooooon too his voice!!!!!!!!!!!!! ohhhh sooooo beautiful~~~~~~~~~ (not just his voice ok!! THE SONGS! THE SONGS DUDE!!)






Akira with a teddy bear!!


ANYWAYYYYYYY...

I really like this clip of Ryuutarou and Akira drawing and DAMN MY non existant Japanese i have NO IDEA what they're talking about... But I really like the clip!

Ryuutarou's really cute and of course, Akira is damn cheeky here!!!!! I love how he's playing around with that plastic hand thing!! damn cute! hahahaha... oh my~~~ here we go again!

THIS IS JUST FUCKED UP RUMIKO TAKAHASHI!!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I WILL NOT STOP CRYING IF YOU KILL RIN!!! MOREOVER, MORE IMPORTANTLY....................... I WILL STOP READING INUYASHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



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COMMENTS on THIS CHAPTER:

----- CAN YOU SEE HOW MUCH SESSHOUMARU CARES FOR RIN?!
damnnnnnn please don't let her die!!!

----- I love the part where after he cuts the pall bearers of the afterlife, Rin and Kohaku is released from the Hell Hound. Sesshoumaru goes to Rin and almost touches her face as if to hold her when she breathes... and you can see the relief on his face...

----- I love the part where Shesshoumaru orders Kohaku to take Rin and run when they are attacked, but Kohaku falls behind, Sesshoumaru flies to cradle them with his one arm to take them to safety... And then after that Sesshoumaru tells Kohaku "Don't make me waste time unnecesarily... This arm.. is only meant to hold a sword".. And there's actually a tinge of sadness/regret on Sesshoumaru's face when he says this.
I loved this part because, i felt that it was such a poignant illustration perhaps, of how Sesshoumaru feels about himself as well as the reason why he has never been affectionate towards Rin. Because in his own eyes he sees himself to be a demon that can only wield a sword to attack, but not to protect... Yet inside him, perhaps, he feels that he wants to protect Rin but knows his true nature...

----- OF COURSE!! The last part was REALLY touching but damn sad!!! It's when Kohaku tells Sesshoumaru, "Shesshoumaru-sama, Rin is not breathing..".. and SESSHOUMARU ACTUALLY reacts with SHOCK and looks striken!!!!! HE CARES ABOUT RIN YO!!!!!!


MY TWO SEN

--- OK I TOTALLY DO NOT want them to kill Rin off just to make the point that Sesshoumaru has a kind heart. PLEASE! WE KNOW HE HAS A SOFT SPOT FOR RIN ARLEADY!!!

--- what i am hoping though is that, actually, MAYBE Sesshoumaru would give up his quest to power up Tensaiga to find a way out of the path to hell, so that Rin would be safe... That way, he would have chosen to protect life instead of seeking more power for himself.... Wouldn't that count as passing his father's test??