ひとりの夜もそばにいようぜ　君と僕の歌を歌う

Lunkhead fans are the best!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've said before right? That the camaraderie of fans are just amazing! And today, again, was a perfect example of it!!!

Tsuyoshi has a friend, whom till today I didn't even know his name, who is a huge Lunkhead fan. When Tsuyoshi accompanied me to the Tower Records Lunkhead live last June, he met his friend there. His friend was incredibly shocked to see Tsuyoshi there because he told Tsuyoshi that Lunkhead is such an unknown band, so it was amazing that Tsuyoshi was even there... And then he was shocked that Tsuyoshi was there to accompany me! Hehehe.. So anyway, I also met him again in the December show because the Tsuyoshi actually had planned to go with his friend for the first December show..

ANYWAY... it's this friend Nagami-san whom I have been asking Tsuyoshi to help me to buy alot of the Lunkhead goods that are live specials...

ANYWAY.... so, I asked him to help me get the Lunkhead Photobook at Mikan Matsuri this year...... He got it for me, and TODAY I received the package...

BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT~~!!! I WAS SO SHOCKED!!! AND INCREDIBLY TOUCHED!!! He not only bought the Photobook for me, he also got me the cellphone strap that I was too shy to ask him to help me buy!!!! And he sent me LOADSSSSSS of other Lunkhead goods that i never asked for from previous live!!!!


(LOOK AT ALL THAT STUFF!!! WTH!!! It was like receiving a TOTALLY unexpected INCREDIBLE surprise gift!!!! I only expected or asked for ONE item and look at ALL the amazing wonderful goods i got instead!!! I'm so shocked and touched that I'm really speechless!!!!)

He sent me some Lunkhead fliers and some of those handout magazines with lunkhead article in it, he even sent me a Lunkhead PEN! And, he also sent me a Lunkhead bag!!! In addition, he even sent me the Lunkhead plastic bag that you get when you buy goods at the live... Not just one of the bag but two!!! Oh, and he also sent me a poster I've not even opened yet!!! Also, he included a Natsu no Nioi fan and he even sent me this special Lunkhead article that, I think, is a Chockyu special fan magazine!!!! And as if that was not enough, he even included a DVD of the Studio Coast live that he ripped himself!!!


Nagami-san's letter~~

I'm so incredibly touched by his kindness!!! I never expected it!!!!! Totally incredible that I don't have words to describe how wonderful I think his thoughtfulness and kindness are!!!

I mean, I'm really, really, really touched... It's like I never asked for it... but to me, I feel like he knew how much it would mean to me as a fan and he sent them!!

ALSO, I MUST thank TSUYOSHI too!!! Because it was him who always helped me with Lunkhead!!! And it was him who helped me ask his friend!!! Without Tsuyoshi, I would have never have experience so much happiness~~~~!!!! Thank you, Tsuyoshi~~~ You really put a smile on my face~~!! ^______^



ALL THAT SAID.... I also MUST MUST MUST MUST MUST thank ~~~~Ame~~~~!!!! I'm really sorry I have not posted about it yet because I was really busy at that time!! BUT HERE'S ANOTHER GREAT FAN!! Lunkhead fans are just amazing!!!!!!

Ame is incredible!!!! She was sooooooooooooo wonderful enough to be willing to help me buy soooooo many special Lunkhead goods when she went for the live!!!! SORRY I trouble you so much!!!!

She helped me buy the Studio Coast Limited Edition DVD!!!!!!!! Yoshitaro drew the illustration!!!! THANK YOU, AME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



She even helped me get a Lunkhead bag!!!!!!!! The bag is soooooooo cute!!!!



And also a T-Shirt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The T-Shirt is soooooooooo cute!!! I cannot imagine Odaka-san wearing it!!! hahaha!! So cute!!!! hahahaha



And lastly, she even included a nice button badge for me!!!



THANK YOU VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH AME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


I'm really really touched by their kindness and their actions~~~!!!! I feel like, because of this band, because we love the same music and we like the same band, it's like..... we have a bond!! I really feel it...... And I really thank you, Ame, and I really thank you Nagami-san, for making all of us feel like we are all part of a big, big Lunkhead family!!!!!!!! Even though we come from different countries, even though we don't know each other for a long time~~ Thank you sooooo much for your wonderful kindness that reaches beyond~~ because of a band and because of their music~~!!

I really really really don't know what to say.... I am so touched by all these kindness and helpfulness that I just cannot believe it.... because it's so wonderful~~~! And it's BEYOND imagination, you know???? It's just so incredible.......

本当にありがとう！！！



This week has also been a GOODS week!!!

I got my package from Japan and I got つばき CDs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Sorry i didn't buy new ones but at least I supported the band and bought the original CDs right???? I have all the songs already, but these are the majority of Tsubaki's CDs that I still don't have... They have ALOT of singles and albums... And I think right now, there are maybe 2 or 3 CDs that I don't yet have....

Oh and Incredible!!! The Hanabi single, although used copy, still had the Tsubaki limited edition sticker included in it!! hehehe...

Oh! And I also got the DVD a few weeks back too! hehehe...






THANK YOU EVERYONE!!!!!!!

And most of all, thank you, God, for ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS blessing me with such incredible friends that I don't deserve.... Thank you so much....

should have remembered that there is more to life than this place, than these walls, than these students, than this life itself. That there should be so much more, and there is so much more. Why, why, why did I let my circumstance bind me as it did?

I regret.

Well. Phooi Wah left tonight.

I don't know what to say about her, you know? Except that I think she's probably the only friend whom I can share my dreams with, and who in turn believes in it too, no matter how ridiculous it is.

I realized today while I was driving back from KLIA after sending her off... and I remember the last time I went to KLIA was with her when we went there just for a ride coz I was depressed... And I realized that she's one of my only friends whom I probably have revealed 98% of my known self to her. That she's perhaps the only friend who truly knows the best of me and the worst of me, and yet still believes.

I was driving back and I realized that I will really miss having her around. That she won't be here to talk with anymore. Here to rebuke me or here to support my most ridiculous of ideas. That I will miss driving around with her, or eating with her in the car, or talking with her or just going to places with her.

That with her leaving, I guess, a period of my life has ended too.


I wonder if I'll ever find a friend like her again... Someone I can not only be childish with, and someone I can talk to about guys, someone I can be totally open with all my ideas and my beliefs about dreams, and faith and life.... Someone I can have the most challenging and philosophical of talks. Someone who understands the whole spectrum of me, and still find it in her heart to love me despite all these fucked up things inside.

She has been a great friend. Someone who tolerates my whims and selfish demands, and still gives more even when I never seem to give in. Someone who, despite my narrow way of thinking, still appreciates my thoughts. Someone whose spirituality has taught me so much about faith in God.... And it's not Bible verses she spews out, or your run-on-the mill pastorial copy-and-paste lecture notes... But the way that she leads me in my faith in God is through her action, through her life experience, through her utter conviction and beliefs and faith that are oh, so VERY real, and most of all, through how she lives her life in faith in God. It's not just Bible verses or pastorial notes that has never been experienced, all that she has taught me, has been from a truth she experienced in her life with God--


And I really hope... and I really hope... I'll be able to do what you said, Phooi Wah... It's sad but I always thought of myself as a dreamer, but, I have never believed in the strength of dreams.

And I really hope I'll have faith like yours to take this step forward as you asked me to...

I was really touched the night you scolded me online, and you said that you were being so mean because, you really believe I deserve to be happy.

Sometimes, I don't believe I deserve that because I've not done anything good that deserves such blessings. And sometimes I think that wishing for my own happiness, and pursuing my own happiness, is such a selfish act....

But, I really want to believe in what you said, and I really want to believe in what you wrote to me. And I'm really, really, really.... touched, that.... you believe in my dreams, even when I don't. That you believe in the strength and the purity in pursuing this dream, even though I don't.

I really, really, really hope I can do as you said, as I said I want to but you know I don't have the guts to do. I really really hope that............ I will be sending you a postcard from Japan soon... And.... we'll both of different zipcodes soon.


Thank you, and I'll miss you very much. Thank for your belief in me and thank you for seeing the beauty when I can't. Thank you for all the times you've lived through my demands, and thank you for giving me even more than the selfishness that I demand. Thank you for all the talks and all the philosophies. Thank you, for the greater sense of spirituality that you've showed me through your words, your acts, your faith, and your life. Thank you, that through it all, through all my selfishness, my demands, my insecurities, thank you that you still love me.


And I love you too. And I hope, we'll meet again, soon.

Ok.... more icons.... I scanned in the Tsubaki pictures... so was making Tsubaki icons... Although, I like the pictures of them as a group the best, coz they're so happy together... Especially some of the tsuntsun tsubaki radio show pictures...

But anyway, here are three more ^___^


Sorry~~~ I don't think they're together (as in a couple) ^__^;;
But I think they looked cute together in this picture ^___^, Isshiki and Nao-chan (that's wot he calls her! cute~ ^_^). Tsubaki fans, please don't kill me!!


Anyway, it just says isshouni-- doesn't mean anything, just "together with".... So maybe they go places together, which they do, since they're in the band together. Muahahahaha..


もうラブラブ～
hehehehe... I wanted to put like a Love Music speech bubble instead... would have been more.... accurate! hehe.. But they look cute here too ^__^


Neko suki!


He likes cats... He's always taking pictures of cats. He likes dogs too, but he doesn't take many pictures of dogs.

Oh, and I changed the border for Okamoto-san's icon...


this is the new one.

old one:


Hmmm... I don't seem to have any ideas these days :(


TAGGED AS: TSUBAKI (つばき) Icons! Crawl me google!

Icons frenzy!!!!!

I have two more! One Yoshitaro and one Isshiki-san...


OK desu! ^___^ I don't quite like the colors for this one.... sigh....



Yoshitaro.... The words are suppose to say "because you are you"..... I took the "you are you" from Tsubaki's Katamichi Kippu lyrics... ^___^


I want to do one of Okamoto-san next!! The one with the shoes.... I think... Lemme go check! ^__^

----- EDIT ------

FINISHED Okamoto's icon!!!!! Here it is ^____^



She's abit too red.... and i can't seem to get my pictures to shine or glow :(

「風の向こうに何がある？」

You know, I've been, I keep listening to Tsubaki's Kinou no Kaze.... and I really love it... and there's this one line where he sings "kaze no mukou ni nani ga aru?"(Is there anything beyond the wind/on the other side of the wind, what exist(what is there?))

And I really like this line alot... for some reason, it speaks alot to me... and although it means nothing, it somehow just spoke of this thing in my heart.........

And I understood what that was, and why, why this line resonated my heart's desire, fear and anxiety... I understood, because as I was praying just now, I.... embraced the truth that.... the truth that why this line mean so much to me is because, I'm so scared, and I wish so much to God that... God, I really hope there is something for me beyond that wind. On the other side of this great unknown, this great unachievable, this great.... thing.... there would be, there is something there for me, waiting for me.

「風の向こうに何がある？」

Yoshitaro icons~~ ^___^

I really like making icons, but i wish I had all the background, brushes, textures, fonts and not to mention TALENT, to make them without having to have to search for the things as I make each icon... Kinda takes alot of time to make one.

Anyway, I have a few nice Odaka-san pictures that I really want to make icons with, but I can't seem to think of anything nice to make the pictures into, I rather not waste the nice picture. He looks REALLY REALLY cute in them too.

Anyway, here are the two I made last night =)



Two days ago:




Last Year's:



These are the Plastic Tree icons from two years ago... It's really nice to make icons when you have cool pictures and inspiration!!!




As you can see, I am getting lazier and lazier with the icons!!! The plastic tree ones seem much...... more complicated!! hahaha... Sorry, Yoshitaro!!


Anyway, a few years ago, I really liked Akira from Plastic tree... But there weren't many pics of him to work with. Of course Ryutarou has like a MULTITUDE of pictures to work with and he's usually very photogenic, so there're alot of great pictures of him to work with... So there are ALOT of really cool icons of him online.

Anyway, it's kinda easier to make icons with bands like Plastic Tree because they're a visual kei band, so the base pictures are usually really visually cool anyway.


But that said, actually, it's actually those informal pictures that usually inspire me more than official photoshoots... I just feel there's more to work with, and more quirky stuff to come up with, if it was one of those candid pictures, or like a screen capture from a video or something. I'm really sad I lost alot of those Lunkhead pics I found online =( Oh well.... Lets see if I can come up with anything else!

honestly...as a friend...i dont really care what u do and where u do what u do.... i just want u to be happy. Because i believe u deserve to be happy.

-friends don't let friends kill zombies alone-

wow... almost 2 weeks without a post....

It has been a CRAZYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY HECTIC week..............

Anyway, wasted the weekend (Sunday) making icons and stuff......

I still can't make the 50 ODK icon thing!! But anyway...........................

Here's the weekend..... all 9 hours of it.....


(ok... actually... this is the ONLY icon I made the whole time) I know I've not been listening to Lunkhead much, but I still love Yoshitaro <3 ;)


(this is not a 100x100px icon... but i suppose.... can still be used no?? I just wanted something for MSN...)

ORIGINAL:

(poor radio host got photoshopped off)



And.... Tsubaki~~~ Isshiki-san...... I really liked this pic he put on the Tsubaki blog ^__^

--->

Tsubaki Guitar Hero~! ^__^


Yeah... WASTED.

I really like making icons, but it's such a hassle, and I'm not creative enough!