going to keigo's farewell party tonight. i hope it's not gonna be all awkward oh please let me be a little drunk before long... please God let me have a good time and not be surrounded by a 100 Japanese speaking people for 3 hours and not have a single clue at all what the heck is being said! *sigh* the perils of life i tell ya.
SEE YA IN MALAYSIA!!!!!
arghhhhhhh!
when i tell keith i think that he's beautiful and i said it... well not exactly but i did say "stay beautiful" duh, that's all i really mean. that to me, in my heart of hearts, he's really beautiful. I call see it unfurling, that's all.
There is not a single guy save NATE probably, that i actually desire something from when i say something about them. But since Nate is happy with Ivy, i will not touch him, not even in my thought because that's how it's meant to be. But seriously, there is really no real guy that i meet or whom i know or come across that I really desire to have anything with him.
when i tell you that you're beautiful, that's all it is, that you are, well, beautiful.
about love and life and loneliness...
about the 50 people sitting in their singular cubicles typing away...
so much time to have to spend alone...
why not we all hook up and dance?
just a simple "hello"
and just another simple smile.
i know you're as lonely as i am.
(and i know you know that i'm as lonely as you are)
as much time as i do to waste.
why don't we waste time together then?
But in our singular cubicles we sit
as we type away on the flashing screen,
a construction we like to call our lives;
a lie.
here i am and there you are
and this space of 50 cubicles in between
is all we'll ever be.
(say yes say yes say yes)
i guess that's why i'll always believe in saying what you feel so deeply inside. even if it's to a stranger you don't know that "i think you are so beautiful," not because you want something back in return but it's just something that must be told... and it's something that is nice for the other person to hear. this glasshouse is burning down. so burn the bridges down. because tonight won't make a difference.
"This sem, I have to do broadcast journalism 2. I have to take the video camera and shoot an interview...about social welfare. So far, I still don't know what to focus on coz i just got my round yesterday."
All da best man, Li Li.... I'm suppose to do Broadcast writing next sem but i'm thinking of withdrawing coz too much work. But at least i don't need to use video, just writing news for the radio that's all... hmmmmm.
Anyways, it's 7pm and the comp lab is lil empty.... last day, last weekday in Calif tomorrow, why is it that everytime it comes to leaving it's harder? I like it when the campus is quiet and no one's around. makes it feel more like home.
Anyway, i guess there are stuff i could do back home in Malaysia. I don't know. Aloneness is always a good thing, no? All the time you have to yourself to do whatever you want. Don't you want to share it with anyone elaine? No, not particularly.
Well TBS played New American Classic during their Tower Records acoustic performance show. I liked it. I really really really wanted them to play that song cause it's acoustic but i didn't think they would considering that they were gonna play only 5 songs but they did, they closed with that and i was happy cause that song is awesome. =) Then again which song is NOT?
Anyway, i don't know if i want to or don't want to go for Keigo's farewell party tomorrow. for one thing i can't get him on the phone, for another thing Satoshi's not going so i won't know anyone there, for a third thing is that I don't know if i'll be able to get a ride there and back. but all that aside... Paul might be there. But then again, do i want to see him? But then again, if i don't go, i won't see Keigo again.
I woke up today and felt discontented. I've never felt that for quite awhile now. for a very long while actually.
Days Away added a PA date on the 29th. I wonder if they're headlining- if they are.... HULLO PHILADELPHIA- City of Brotherly Love here i come!!!! Then again, i can't skip school on monday elaine! it's only the begining of the semester!! GEEZ.
all the pieces fall down and Taking Back Sunday I wonder why the hell but their album has a very hahahaha...... EMO mood to it, hellz. It's so dark, or at least to me the songs are very moody and night-ly. Oddly enough, they're all night songs. *sigh* is this then your fault TBS, that i am feeling depressed?
Things I hate about Journalism:
1) Accuracy
a) I realized that my editor (and my professor) will fry my ass if i fail to be accurate in my reporting a fact, materials from an interview, observation, and what not.
b) I realized that my source will fry my ass if I failed to accurately report on information that they had revealed to me in interviews.
c) I realized that people can be fried by my inaccurate reporting for example in a court hearing.
d) I realized that people are actually going to read what I write and take it as Truth. And I can't be Wrong or not even a little inaccurate because what i write must be the absolute Truth as readers assumes it to be.
2) Ethics.
a) I realize that sometimes i really have no idea what is appropriate to ask and reveal in an interview.
b) I realize that i cannot be lazy when writing and in the process of getting materials to write and article because this may result in a mishandling of number (1)
3) Interviews
a) i realize that i don't like conducting interviews because i often don't know how i should act and what i should ask.
b) I don't like arranging for an interview cause more often than not, people are unwilling to talk to a reporter.
c) I realize i don't know the appropriate mannerism for an interview. what time to be there, how to act, what to do, how to dress right for an interview.
4) AP style.
a) nuff said. i don't know the AP style book at the back of my head.
Friends of Journalism
1) I plead the First Admendment.
2) I plead the Fifth Admendment.
3) God bless New York Times v. Sullivan and the Standard of Actual Malice (but that's defence against libel, lets hope we never get there)
oh dang... we no have those in Malaysia.
"The best defence for a journalist is TRUTH." but then again, that's also really hard because the Truth is easier imagined than practiced. What is it about accuracy that i so fear? Because i cannot fail it not even in a single word that I write.
*sigh*
I wish it was easier like writing a music review or a movie review or some OP-ED Opinion column or something.
*why journalism?????????????????????????????*
-God bless my first article.... please please please let it be good.
2) Adam Lazzara of Taking Back Sunday is in great need of a HAIRCUT... geezzzzz... ur suppose to look cute Adam, not messy.
3) The school library is overflowing with VERY CUTE GUYS... where the hell have i beem for the past 1 1/2 years?!
Kyoto
I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW that we had a campus postal service!!!! hellzzzzzz....... And i have practically ZEROOOOOOOOOOOOOO sources on campus.
soooooooooooo.......... with NO SOURCES whatsoever, i have to go FIND sources through the uni's website, email, call or bang on their doors for interviews (obviously i am not gonna bang on the doors cause i don't even DARE to CALL).
Bad news too is that i found out today that people aren't willing to talk. The postal guy seems okay, but Admissions and Records was like the White House, hmm... I still haven't gotten a call back from the Postal place yet and if they don't call back, i have to call again. then i must have at least 3 human sources and student interviews... So I'm thinking to get the Postal Guy, someone from the International Student Office (cause i'm sure they're affected too) and hopefully i can get at least 2 students to talk to give me their opinion about it. WHAT THE HELL MAN WHAT THE HELL?!!!!
I have no story idea.. I think my editor wants me to write something contraversial like how the budget cutbacks is now affecting postal delivery and thus the students too... But by the looks of it, i'm just gonna report about the implementation of this policy, bg info, etc.. and then get quotes and phraphrasing of the effect it has on some departments (or ONE department) as well as what students think about it. and that's it.
All due NEXT FRIDAY before i LEAVE FOR MALAYSIA. what the hell.
And to think i have to keep doing this NEXT SEMESTER for 20 stories... How the hell am i going to complete 20 stories within 14 weeks of school???????????????????? that's like 2 stories due A WEEK. how the hell am i gonna manage that?! i think i'm gonna drop that second JOUR writing class so i don't have to spend an additional 3 hours at the school radio in addition to all the extra hours for the newspaper. I don't know... shite, i should have gotten this planned out earlier.
OH YEAH, it doesn't help either that my stupid phone is dying and so, there's no ringer and it doesn't even vibrate anymore. I have to make phonecalls on a BLANK monitor, don't know who's call i am missing if I miss the call cause of the dead ringer. and i have to deal with all these AND set up those interviews. Damn and TBS is next tuesday. I hope i can get the International Student Office thing done by monday, and then Tuesday, bye bye assignment, i don't care because it's TBS release date. Then wendesday hopefully can get some interview with the Postal guy. Thursday with students or other departments. Friday and next Monday before i leave go WRITE the damn assignment and then GO BACK HOME on Tuesday!
crappppppppppppp
WHY THE HELL JOURNALISM?????????????????????????????????????????
Shit... i forgot........ it was a cruel twist of fate.......... crap.
alright, that's just me bitching. i wish the assignment can get done by just me bitching about it..... *sighhhh*
Elaine
He liked her a lot.
He liked her cute figure,
He thought she was hot.
But could a flame ever burn
For a match and a stick ?
It did quite literally;
He burned up pretty quick.
- Tim Burton, Melancholy Death of Oyster Boy and other stories-
(thanks KELVIN! it really made me laugh like hell!)
do i dare disturb the universe? force the moment to its crisis.
well the cute guy is sitting infront of me. i asked satoshi yesterday if i saw him should i ask him out and Satoshi said "sure!"... hmmm is he trying to set me up for failure????
Well, saw cute guy the other day in the library hallway. thought he was cute at first sight. heh. then saw him again on erm, tuesday. didn't have the guts to ask him out or say hi. then yesterday didn't see him in the morning. Went back to the lab in the evening with satoshi. Saw ANOTHER cute guy *drool* *God bless CSUN*... Another Cute guy was talking with another friend... yes in Japanese of all things since i was complaining like shite about my lack of erm... understanding in that language... then Satoshi and I left and i took a glance at the new cute guy when i saw next to the new cute guy was the cute guy.
and so i told myself i'd ask the guy out if i saw him today. i really wanted to see him. but now that i DO, i don't dare. heck.
God, grant me more gutsssss.................. wait. then again, becareful what you wish for elaine.
and don't ask me why i am doing this... it's just that i feel like........ i must. that's all! wuahahhahahaha...
hi,i think you're really cute ^^'
shite.
i'm so juvinille. damn.
HONTONI??????
UPDATE July 7, 2004 - The fourth movie has been titled "Inuyasha: Guren no Houraijima" ("The Crimson Hourai Island").
The island of Hourai, controlled by four demon gods. A girl who knows Inuyasha appears: "Ai." (doesn't that fucking means LOVE? Kikyo??? FUCK YOU!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO) Unchanged for fifty years, what is this girl's secret? When the cursed seal comes to the surface, it begins Inuyasha and Sesshoumaru's newest battle!
FUCKKKKKKKK!! DAMN MY JAPANESE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY WHY WHY??? WHY THE FUCK CAN'T I READ JAPANESE?!?! WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY???????!!!!!!!!! *YELLS* *SCREAM* *MOURN*
INUYASHA MOVIES PLAYING IN SELECT CITIES...JUNE 29, 2004 - Inuyasha: Affections Touching Across Time will be showing in select cities on the following dates. If you're in or near one of these cities, you may want to check it out!July 22 - San Diego, CA (Comic Con International screening)July 24 - San Diego, CAJuly 31 - Baltimore, MDAugust 7 - Minneapolis, MNAugust 13 - San Fransisco, CAAugust 14 - Los Angeles, CAAugust 21 - Atlanta, GAAugust 28 - Philadelphia, PASeptember 4 - New York, NYSeptember 11 - Toronto, ON (Canada)September 14 - Dallas, TX
NEAR????????????????? FUCK!!!!!!!! I SHOULD HAVE BEEN IN BALTIMORE!! FUCKKKKKKK!! LOS ANGELES AUGUST 14th!!!!!!! I AM IN MALAYSIA THENNNNNNNNNN FUCK FUCK FUCKKKKK!!! *HEART SHATTERS BEYOND REPAIRRRRRRRRRRRRR* FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SUMMER SESSION 1 2004
AAS 201 RACE CRIT THINK 3.0 3.0 11.1 A-
JOUR 330 EDITING 2.0 2.0 7.4 A-
5.0 5.0 18.5 (3.70)
TOTAL 105.0 117.0 381.6 (3.63)
3.63.... yeah yeah yeah!! THANK YOU GOD!!!! but i don't remember if my CGPA actually fell or if it got raised, it just looks good and a little SAFER.... but i didn't realize that my GPA fell to 3.34 last fall and 3.46 in spring... that's shit results man. geez, 3.34, that's the worst I've gotten =/ But thank God!!!! I've always ALWAYS been a lousy student anyway, somehow or rather, thank God, i've been getting Bs and B+s and A-s, which is AWESOME.... for those who knew me back in highschool and even in A-Levels, my results have always been crappy. Thank God I'm doing well now!!! I REALLY wanna graduate with 3.5 and above!!! Then i can get that cumme laude thingy behind my name on the commencement booklet WUAHAHAHHAHAHA... looks cool wut... pay so much money to study here might as well get a little more space on the commecement book, no???? hehehehehehehe...
Anyway, i am peeking at some cute guy sitting behind me in the comp lab. I saw him the other day and thought that he was really cute, saw him today pulak again!!! cuteeee~ I wanna go ask him out but i don't dare. haihhhh
Anyway, came back from denver yesterday. Robbie's family is really great. His grandma actually gave me a can of those Scouts popcorns before i left cause when i met her on Saturday, heh, his mom was giving me some of those popcorns to try out. His Aunt is also really nice, she's very very well travelled and knows alot of stuff going on around the world, so that's really cool. And his whole family is totally cool about him going for so many shows, they even encourage it, like the whole family knows what's going on with Robbie.... hmmm.... unlike my parents. heh. I don't tell them cause they'd tell me DON'T GO ELAINE.
FUCK!!! i am in a dilemma.............................. I really wanted to skip L'arc~en~Ciel's show because the plane ticket is costing me too much.... or so i thought.... So i went to check out Days Away's show instead, and see if i could fly to BOSTON to meet elaine teh instead, spend some time with her, and if possible, then we can both go for the Days Away show in Rhode Island.....
THEN, i found cheaper fights to Baltimore for L'Arc at the very same moment that i found out that there are also good CHEAP flights to Boston......... so... macam mana huh?
So......... L'Arc or Days Away? The shit thing is that Days Away's set is only 30 mins... or 6 songs max, and they only play like 3-4 EP songs that i can sing to (elaine, you can't sing to ANY L'Arc song hmmm)... And even if i went on my knees to beg them to play and OLD OLD song, THEY WON'T fuckers. =\ heh. sigh....
Anyways... since the pics are in "high" demand.... here they are.... they look ok. hehe. I look fat in the one Tim carried me but den again, HE SHOULD HAVE GAVE ME A WARNING!! I kawtaw to him cause he's so damn thin but he managed to lift me off the floor for a substantial period of time and NOT BREAK HIS BACK. hmmmm.... all that drumming must have gave him some good muscles, no?
In denver now!! staying at Robbie... THANKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Him and his family are awesome =DD!!!! awesome too for putting me up for FOUR DAYS!!!!!!
Anyway, saw Saves The Day last night in Denver... they played alot of old songs which was awesome cause i had wanted to hear their old stuff... I'm kinda sad though that they didn't play much new In Reverie stuff.... cause it's an AMAZINGGGGGGGGG album!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm just sad cause most of their older fans, like those who loved STD from before, they don't like the new stuff alot... and you can see the difference in the crowd's reaction when they play old and new stuff... For the old stuff, fans will like get REALLY crazy, for the new stuff... they just stand there.. and i feel sad for STD cause i really don't want them to think that fans don't like their new stuff or that their old stuff are better cause that's bullshit. they're awesome, and they're awesome, old or new. and i wish i could just tell chris that you know what? In Reverie is an AMAZINGGGGGGGGGGGGG album and don't EVER think otherwise!
ANYWAYS... i also saw days away today. hehe. *smiles* *bliss*... i had a nightmare that i couldn't get to see them and couldn't get to talk to the band. They were MIA mostly today... and i REALLY mean MIA... NO ONE, and i mean NO ONE was at the merch booth 80% of the time which is shit cause what if someone wants to buy some merch???? or heck! aren't they worried about people stealing their merch too???????
But anyways, i got there and i saw Tim backstage and I went over to go say hi, and Keith was there too while i was getting there. So i said hi to tim and Keith and Keith gave me a hug and asked "what are you doing here???" to see you of course!! DAYS AWAY ALL THE WAY MAN!!!!! Anyways, we went over to the van to talk cause it was loud inside (the first band was playing) and we talked about bunch of stuff, mostly music of course and me bitching about their cancelled shows and me not being able to go for their PA show. We also talked about me being in Denver to see them and then i told him about the video i made. THen we talked abit about Philadelphia shows, and then a little bit more about erm...... on yeah their set list.
Then i went back for the show.
Their set was AWESOME, as always... =D They played 3 new songs instead of 2, so that means they kicked off 1 song from the EP. they also didn't play Keep Your Voices Down, but they played T Klien Declines (WHICH WAS AWESOME CAUSE TIM WAS JUST KICK ASS THERE). In all it was a great set!!! The whole band was amazing as always. Chris, you're one crazy dude on stage! he is like WARPEDDDDD in his own world when he's on stage!!! *AWESOME* tim.... we don't need to say no more... Keith, heh, also in his own world. Austin, immerse. Brian, heh, looks like he's concentrating so hard!!!! But Brian's awesome... i think it's good they have him in the band now cause he plays DOUBLE keyboards and that's just amazing what he does.
Anyways... so we stayed in the pit for the next band and then erm.... i went to buy merch!! THEY HAD A NEW SHIRT WHICH WAS SOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE! hehehe... so i bought that one, Austin, Chris and Brian was sitting around near the merch booth (THE ONLY TIME IT WAS ACTUALLY POPULATED)
Anyways... erm... i didn't get to talk to Keith till after Steel Train's set... Sorry i had to ditch Robbie for a moment but i completely grabbed the chance to talk to keith cause he was passing me and he was alone cause shit man, Keith is like a butterfly that flies around and it's damnnnnnnnnn hard to catch him once u missed him... Cause i always think that he's always 1) near/inside the van, 2) have 10,000 people around him, 3) running around 4) distracted 5) just gone. SOOOOO if u ever see keith alone, dude, just GRAB the chance and go talk man, cause that's the ONLY TIME u'd see him.
Anyways, so we went to the merch booth and talked abit cause i told him about that selling the DA CDs in Malaysia and all that and he told me about erm their street team. Then I asked about their album and it seems that it's gonna be out in JANUARY, DAMNNNNNNNNNNNN. And then his brother came, SORRY I DON'T KNOW YOUR NAME. and Keith "introduces" me to his brother. Then tells me "i'll be right back".... the MAGICAL words.... Keith will NEVER be right back....... NEVER...... and i do mean it cause he's said it to me at least 4 times and he has NEVER come back!
So i ended up talking to the brother who was actually really friendly. I kinda didn't think he was that approachable when i saw him those two times at in LA, but you know what? immiediately after i was introduced to him, he was totally friendly.... like Keith i guess... =)
So we talked about DAYS AWAY IN PHILADELPHIA SHOWSSSSSSSS *heartbreaks* and then i asked him about keith and what's keith's like cause i told him that Keith REALLY DO NOT KEEP TO HIS WORDS wuahahahahahha... and he told me "yeah... keith's a REALLY REALLY nice guy.... but his words... nah, you can never trust what he says," heh. And I asked him what Keith's like and he told me "Keith likes real people" and i asked him waht he means by that... he told me that Keith like those people who talk to him about more than just music (*elaine's failure pt 1. *takes note*).... But hellz, i am REAL. wtf. i love you guys as you are man. shite! And i told him how sad i was sometimes that Days Away been around so long but their pit crowd's still really small... And i wished more people was in there. Then we got talking about Phily again and i told him how i wanted to go for the Syracuse show in August, but he told me to wait out a few months and fly in to Phily instead and so that's what i'm gonan do!!!
We also talked about how much we loved the band for their music, from their heart... and u know.. with Days Away.... that much is very apparent that they make music that is from their hearts and seriously, they are one hell of a talented band too... Especially when they're setting up, you can really see it... Keith will start playing some random riff, then Tim joins in on the drums followed very closely by amazing accompanying basslines from Chris, then Austin joins in with the guitar solos.... and EVERYTHING is done Impromptu!
.... Format came on and i watched their set abit and then Robbie asked if i wanted to leave... I wanted to take a pic with the band so we tried our luck at the merch booth which of course WAS EMPTY..... So we waited around to see who we could catch, but MANNNNNN NO ONE WAS AROUND!! i mean shite, they had 5 guys in the band, 2 merch guy: Mitch and Keith's bro but NO ONE WAS AROUND!! geezzzzz
FINALLY though, i was glad I caught Tim and I told him i was gonna be leaving so he gave me a biggie hug hehe.... and i wanted to say goodbye to them.... and COULD NOT FIND THE BAND.... So Tim offered to go look for the band so he left and i told him to COME BACK TOO cause i wanted a pic with them... (YOU MUST SAY THAT OTHERWISE *POOF!* YOU WON'T SEE THEM AGAIN!!!)....
Then like 5 mins later, Austin came out and asked wassup. and i told him i was leaving and he thanked me for coming out then we talked about abt the PA show then we hugged... Then we took a nice pic.... Then i told him how impossible it is to get the whole band together and Keith is ALWAYS, ALWAYS MIA and how you can't trust what Keith says... and Austin said "you can't trust any of what we say," heh, then he said to me "I'll be right back elaine" hahahahah.....
Then Chris came out BUT YET STILL... dear ol Keith was missing.... So i was standing with Austin and Tim and Tim and me talked abit... hehe, Tim's cute... he treats me real nice, seriously, he does.... and so we talked and then i complained it was IMPOSSIBLE to get the band together for a pic and Keith was still missing... and he offered to go look for Keith for me cause he couldn't find keith the first time...
Then i waited another 5 minutes and FINALLY Keith came out with Mitch and Brian and i told him i was gonna leave so he gave me a hug... then i called him a butterfly hahahahahahah... and mitch and brian insulted him hahahaha.... and then i looked at him and i was like "what?!" and he was like merajuk way said "you called me a butterfly" and i told him "Cause you are one!" and he was like "i am not!" and then i told him, "you have two choices, a) butterfly or b) anti-social" and he was like "phfftt" look... heheheh... and tim was like "Keith anti-social??? He's like chatting ALL THE TIME!!" and Keith was like "yeah, see... chatting" hehehe...
anyways... erm... then we all took a pic... Me and then Tim came over and took a pic too and the lead singer of Steel Train came in too... so we took a 4 ppl pic... hehehe... THEN.... Tim was looking at me and he all eyes rolling (in a cute way) was like "you want a pic with just you and keith don't you?" wauahahahahhaha.... I TELL YOU!!! Tim knows some shit that erm.... some people in the band might be oblivious to!! hahahah... SERIOUSLY!!! Tim knows I like KEith hehehehe.... cause even at the Chain Reaction show TIm asked "wanna say hi to KEITH?" Why not anyone else in the band?! or "the rest of the band?" instead!!! Anyways then I said "yeah yeah i do!" and Tim was like "yeah cause Keith's so delicious" or something along that lines!! hahaha... so keith hugged me and we took a pic and he was in his butterfly pose and Tim took the pic but there was no flash so we retook a pic and Keith was STILL in his butterfly pose and tim was like "why are you standing like that man?" and Keith was like "cause i'm a butterfly" so we gave a butterfly pose and took a pic...
Then i also took a pic with Tim and he CARRIED ME!!! damnnnnnnnn me so fat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahah and i told Tim "DOn"T break your back cause i'm not gonna be responsible for a cancelled tour ok!!!" hehehe cute lah, cute.
Anyways, yeah, so after that we went to the bar abit cause the rest of the band was at the bar... Then i had to leave so i went to hug everyone... hmmm.... I think i hugged Chris, then Austin he told me to take care, then i hugged Keith's bro and told him i'll see him in Phily, then i hugged mitch and he told me to have a good one, and then it was Tim and he told me have a safe trip, flight, etc and thanked me for coming to support... and then i hugged keith and told him to come back to CA soon and he said they will (BUT CAN WE TRUST WHAT HE SAYS??????), and he told me he'll watch the video and msg me online on myspace and stuff... hmm... either him or Tim will reply, or something =) and i told him HE BETTER do it.. heh, but as always... it's Keith, he never listens.
Well so that's my day with days away... gonna develop the pics later to see how it turns out... hope it's good... hehe....
I'm kinda sad though that i only really know 3/5th or 1/2 of Days Away well.... like i'm cool with only 1/2 the band.... Like I feel really okay when I hang around Days Away only when either Keith, Tim or Austin are there.... Like if Chris was there, I don't dare.... and I don't know Brian cause Brian's new in the band too.... and Martin, i don't really know how to talk to him and so I can really only "hang out" with Keith, Tim or Austin.... anyone else, i'll just feel too out of place and just too shy.... I just think that they think that i am annoying, with Chris and with martin, but i don't think they think that,... just that i think only, you know... but i don't think they're like that cause they're usually cool with me too...
Oh well...
so i had my pics and my fun. thank You God..
I'll miss you Days Away, and i'm sorry.... Thanks for the good time, and please, i hope i'll see you soon. take care.
love always in the pit,
Elaine
sigh..
i wanna fucking shoot myself.
OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I THINK INUYASHA MANGA IS COMING TO AN END!!!!!!
All the casts and all the plots are unfolding more and more and more to an inevitable conclusion!!!
Kagura's intents to destroy Naraku is being brought out into light, Kohaku has completely regained his memory and EVERYONE is begining to figure it out!!!, Naraku's plot is blown wide open!!!! Except now is that there's too many bad guys trying to kill one another... Naraku has two detachments who are trying to surpass him and kill him!!! (which i forsee another WHOLE volume dedicated to concluding that shit).
I loved Kagura in the latest chapter!!! I think she'd fit Sesshomaru just right! whehehehehe.. Cause she has been trying to betray Naraku and she was the only one who knew that Kohaku has regained his memory and plans to kill Naraku. She even helps him. But this chapter, she was sent to kill Kohaku but in the end, she couldn't do it!!! And when the baddie attacks Kohaku to kill him, Kagura actually protects Kohaku!!!!!! WOW!!!!! I didn't know she could be so motherly.
I can see it already... Conjugated family it's called. Sesshomaru the dad, with Rin the daugther... Kagura the mom and Kohaku the son.... So sesshomaru hooks up with Kagura and Kohaku and Rin are together also.. WUAHAHAHHA
k... my computer is dead... writing this from school... mac comps are cool =)
died when i was doing MY FINAL EXAM PAPER- SHITTTTTTTTTT
ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
I will most probably be going back to MALAYSIA on Aug 2 - Aug 22.
yeap.
This song is sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good!!! Soraai by my favourite Jpop band Every Little Thing (no the song is not pop, it's AWESOME!). One of those damnnnnnnnnnn inspiring songs that makes your inhale an old breath anew and makes you extend your hands to reach out into the heavens above!!!! Damn, damn, damn!! what the hell is she singing????????? CRAP!
UPDATE on the HYDE Post Yesterday.
elainelmy: oi!
chingmun82: yea
chingmun82: downloading that hyde video
chingmun82: ahahhaa
elainelmy: hhahahahha
elainelmy: cool!!!
elainelmy: u really REALLY REALLY have to watch!!!!
chingmun82: ahahaha
chingmun82: he looked soooo cute
chingmun82: n sososoooo bodoh
chingmun82: n shitttt they got married..ahhahahahaha..
chingmun82: sooo damn romantic
chingmun82: soooo bodoh n soooo cute n adorable
chingmun82: n so "gelabah"
chingmun82: like a stupid high school boy kena blind date
chingmun82: so embarassing
elainelmy: can u believe that he is the lead singer of one of the BIGGEST band in Japan?????????
elainelmy: hahaha
elainelmy: someone like that!!!
chingmun82: ahahaha I KNOW
chingmun82: he's like soooo shy n sooo bodoh
chingmun82: yeah...lost his "coolness"
chingmun82: n sooooo cuteee..
chingmun82: aiyo0o0o..
chingmun82: n sooo bodoh..he giggled like a bodoh kid..
chingmun82: n soooo cuteeee..
chingmun82: aiyo0o0..i feel like giving him a BIG kiss on his cheeks
chingmun82: sooo cute
chingmun82: asyik garu his head..
chingmun82: love at first sight!!
elainelmy: the thing is that
elainelmy: he's always liked herrrr
elainelmy: admire her like everrrrrrrr
elainelmy: so everytime in interview, he would mention her as his dream girl and all dat stuff when ppl ask him
chingmun82: yeahh..
chingmun82: bessss..
chingmun82: its like getting married to ur own idol
elainelmy: u knowwwww... suddenly he became a FAN!
elainelmy: WUAHAHAHHA
chingmun82: wuahahhahahaa..
chingmun82: his MTV n all..soo cool n all..apa tetiba thsi 1..garu his head...blur..
chingmun82: "tobacco"?? (with his fingers showing the ciggratte sign summore)
chingmun82: wuahahahahaa
elainelmy: lemme watch the clip again
elainelmy: DAMNNNNN I AM OBSESSED!
chingmun82: wuahahaa
chingmun82: i had watched it 5times
elainelmy: and did u see the band????
elainelmy: how they just ditch him there???
chingmun82: wuahhaaa
chingmun82: i mean they wanted to "set him up" maa...
chingmun82: like those sort of highschool set up blind date
chingmun82: soooo cute
elainelmy: that's why i love it!!
elainelmy: can't believe this guy is a SUPER SUPERSTAR!!!
chingmun82: i KNOW..
chingmun82: wuahahahaha
chingmun82: n he actually stratched his head like a blur lil kiddo
chingmun82: wuahahaha
chingmun82: soooooo shy
elainelmy: isn't she damn soft spoken also?????????
elainelmy: her voice is so sweet!
chingmun82: yea yea
chingmun82: she she said thank u oso
chingmun82: wuahahaha
chingmun82: soooo super cute
chingmun82: she also liked him b4 this?
elainelmy: nolah... she never says anything
elainelmy: it's only always him who mentions that she's his dream girl
chingmun82: hhmm..meaning he was da 1 whom had a crush on her eh?
elainelmy: YAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!
elainelmy: ISN'T IT OBVIOUS?!
chingmun82: aahahahahhaa
chingmun82: its like
chingmun82: u alwiz think..
chingmun82: he's HYDE for goodness sake..
elainelmy: yahh!!
elainelmy: girls are suppose to fall at his feet!!
chingmun82: i mean he can get ANY girl dat he wans..but in front of megumi
chingmun82: wuahahahaha
elainelmy: not him fall at someone's feet!!!
chingmun82: he's soooo shy...sooooo gelabah
elainelmy: but then thsi one he fall falt on his face here!!
So i called Paul (a.k.a. Hyde V. 2.0) yesterday... I have his name on my phone as "Might As Well Erase" cause... might as well erase right? *sigh* why do i always run my head against the wall?
But i called him, it's about the L'arc show in Baltimore... heh. He's not going cause it's too far and also, he could go for the shows in Japan anyway. Lucky~ why have i never thought of that huh????? Go see L'arc in Japan instead, after all it costs the same for me to fly to Baltimore as it is to fly to Japan.... oh yeh, I can't converse in Japanese =\ damn.
Anyways, i was asking/telling him abt L'arc... and he corrected me "I don't like them. I LOVE them." heh, cute, when he said it. And i told him how i thought he looked like Hyde the first time I saw him. And he said something like "do you know how much it costs me to look like this?!" hmmm but then he also said something like, "yeah. it was easy. i picked up a picture and said 'ah! i think i want to look like that'." then he laughed, so cute, haih. But anyways we talked abit... at least he's NOT as busy as the few times before. then he said he's eating dinner, so i apologize and told him that i feel like i'm stalking him cause i keep calling him also... then he said "YOU ARE" (hmmm) then i say gomen, sorry. Then he said "it's okay" and i said i'll call u when i'm free then he said "okay". hm. damn... i like it when he laughs cause he sounds really cute when he laughs and also... when he smiles.. so cute....*sigh**haih* (GIVE IT UP ELAINE, GIVE IT UP)
why why why?! he should have chosen another dude to look like rather than Hyde right???? then I won't be in such a mess!!!
A L'Arc~en~Ciel Update!
hehehe... erm... don't ask me why, suddenly i felt like watching the Utaban episode when Hyde met his wife Megumi for the first time. I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE this clip because i simply just like nice love stories, and theirs turned out wonderful. I liked how Hyde, the imaculate rock star is brought down to school boy state in this clip! wuahahahahaha... I really liked that. He looked so cute here. Cause he was blushing and all that and he had ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA WHAT THE HELL TO DO!!! wuahahahahahha... poor Hyde but that makes him cute. He started on a great foot with me. hehe....
And I'm sorry to all Hyde girl fans cause i really like his love story with Megumi, how he always mentions in interviews that she is like his perfect girl. And then SUDDENLY, they bring her as a suprise guest! hehehehehe... poor hyde! And i love the first part of this whole episode where he's really wants to meet her and all that when the annoucers were talking about her... so cute!!!!!!!!!
hyde, pre-megumi shock =D
?? : If you propose to Megumi-san to go out with you�
Hyde: That would be great~ yea..
?? : Did you like Megumi-san since long time ago?
Hyde: Yup� Isn't she lovely? I like how her face tone is light.
?? : Then, did you ever meet her in person?
Hyde: No, never�
Tetsu: If you do meet her, what would be your first question?
?? : Have you ever wanted to meet her face to face?
Hyde: Yea.. yea� I believe that I want to meet her�
?? : I have met her before in person..
Hyde: Lucky~~
?? : �. What do you think of her?.. Is she pretty?
?? : Yea� She's very innocent looking�.. She's like a doll..
Hyde: <hyde, after listening to dat, has this �I want to meet her too~~� look, and starts smiling>
?? : Yea,� That's why we provided a special VTR�
?? : Yup, a special VTR for Hyde~!
Hyde: <hyde starts to look all embarrassed and starts that laugh again..> he he..
?? : Okkey� Bring out the VTR!
** Hyde starts thinking that the person who's coming out to the stage was just a person who's trying to hand out the VTR, but soon, he realizes that it's Megumi, herself, in person~!
Hyde: <hyde's face turns all red~~>
hyde, post-megumi!!!
**The other members of the talk show starts leaving the stage for Hyde
?? : And the standby light all ready, too~~ < *.* >
**All of them starts laughing
band, bailing out!!! hahahahahahaha, they were all sooooooooooooo cute!!! they just started rolling on the chair away from them!! wuahahahahahahahahaha.
Megumi: <starts laughing, too>
Hyde: um.. Hello, nice to meet you.
Megumi: Hello~ nice to meet you too~ <sounds very cute~~ ^ ^ >
Megumi!!! she started out on a good foot with me too! cause she sounds BRILLIANTLY sweet! she was so soft spoken!!!! Note: I know that Hyde sometimes, ok, maybe almost all the time, actually looks more beautiful than Megumi actually. But i think they both look good together. It's true he looks much much more pretty/cuter/beautiful than her but for all the Hyde girl-fans out there, knowing that he's so damn good looking, to him she's actually his perfect girl... so in his eyes, she's the most beautiful, even more beautiful than himself, and i think that's very sweet... right????
Hyde: <hyde starts to look all helpless~ hehe>
Megumi: Um� If you'd like to have this <it's her new Photo Album>
Hyde: Oh! Thank you very much. <takes the album> �It looks that your signature is included too~
Megumi: Yea�
**They both start smiling again out of awkwardness� hehe..
CACATLAH i tell u, the both of them!!! geez!!! SCHOOL KIDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Look at that!!! poor hyde!! he's like "what?" and megumi looks like "hmmm" hahahahaha sooooooooo cute!!!
Hyde: <hyde looks back at the other members and seeks help>
Tetsu: <tetsu, from far away whispers out aloud> �Denwa Banho~! Denwa Banho~!� <telephone number>
Hyde: <hyde look like he didn't quite catch what Tetsu was saying exactly, and asks> Tobacco?
Tetsu: <tetsu repeats> �Denwa Banho�
Hyde: telephone number?? <starts laughing again..> <hyde was soooooooooo shocked here!!>
seeeee!! he was so shocked!! like "WHAT?! u want me to ask her THAT?!"
then he smiles... like "WHAT?! seriously?!" hehehe soooooooooo cute lah!
**Hyde seems clueless to the whole situation, so, the members decides to come back to the stage� <shame shame, hyde�>
?? : <comes near hyde> How is she?
Hyde: � She looks very pretty� (THERE!! PROVEN WHAT I JUST SAID ABOUT MEGUMI JUST NOW! =D YAY!)
Megumi: <embarrassed>...no~ i'm not...
** ?? gives sign to hyde to hold her hand
Hyde: � <hyde grabs megumi's hand for a second>
wuahahahahahah! he was sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo clueless!!!!!! hahahaha...
?? : � and hand shake�
Hyde: shake.. <starts to shake and with megumi>
hand shake, hyde, NOT grab her hands! geez!
Megumi: thank you very much � <laughs..>
Hyde: <hyde looks all happy and smiles like hell�.>
SEEE he WAS SMILING LIKE HELL!!! shit! you can see him STARE at her like a 15-year-old school boy again!!!! seriously!!!!!! sooooooooooooooooooooo cute! wuahahahahahha
THEN.
** ?? taps hyde's head~
hyde gets slapped for being lame! wuahahahahahaha! HE DESERVED IT!! he serious, seriously became SOOOOOOOO incapacitated!!!!!! he was just paralyzed!!!!!!!!!!! you can still see that glow-utter-absorbtion in his eyes here too!!! before he got whacked of course! wuahahahahahaha!! so cute!!!
Hyde: <hyde still looking all happy~~> heheh.
hehe... poor hyde... for acting like an idiot! but damn, i liked him that way! hehehehehe... cute yah!
hehehehe... sorry, heh, i'm a sucker for cute guys! and touching love stories that go on to have good times! Actually, she actually did leave shortly after this and he NEVER got her phone number!!!!!! BAKA! seriously baka!!!!!!! But I think it was like 2 weeks later or something like that, she went to his show and they met again there and it was love-at-fight-sight-reply happily-ever-after after that cause......... THEY GOT MARRIED! AND HAD A KID LAST YEAR!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!
happy happy me
but you have to admit that he's damn cute no? =D TIME TO BOOK MY FLIGHT TO BALTIMORE!!! wuahahahahahahahaha...
that's hyde... current.. doesn't he just look amazing?!
that's megumi.... that's like the cutest pic i can find of her... actually in that Utaban episode when she first met Hyde, she looks damn good there, no? I think so. Usually her hair's less done up and stuff too... but she looks awesome in that clip =D
BUT THERE YOU GO.. he DOES look better than her!!! But he thinks she's pretty!!! so that's all that matters!!!! Cause she's special to Hyde! *hugssss*
okkkk.... now i can go flunk my finals and my presentation tomorrow for wasting 3 hours on this post.
video and transcript downloadable from: Reincarnation
INUYASHA SPECIAL!!!!
YEAH!!! Inuyasha again! The ear-tweak website reuploaded the cute chapter where Inuyasha meets Kagome's friends for the first time!!! I love this chapter, except for the shit thing that the only reason why this chapter is sweet is because of Inuyasha's shit with Kikyo. But the heartbreaking shit aside, it's chapters like these that always really make me love Rumiko Takahashi's works because i tell you, she's just absolutely brilliant in writing heart warming "make up" chapters and all her odd ball relationships of two retarded lead characters!!!! TOTALLY! hehehehe! It was because of these reason why I feel hopelessly addicted and in love with Inuyasha to begin with!!! ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I pray for a happy ending!!!!!!
As a "treat" I have uploaded the chapter for your reading pleasure!!! heh.... more of like for MY pleasure! wuahahaha. haha.
[HERE]
-links to another page. angelfire does not allow hotlinking-
all can be purchased for me at: www.merchdirect.com.... please click on the banner that says THURSDAY.
thanx =P
anyways, here's a nice lil something for you from the ever amazing band Thursday, from their song from the album of the same title "War All The Time". go check them out. i must say that i think Thursday's like one of those rare bands that actually give a damn about the world and shit that happens and about the message of their songs and have a meaning and message they wanna tell kids through their songs. so go theck them out.
War all of the time
In the shadow of the New York skyline
We grew up too fast falling apart
Like the ashes of American flags
The pieces fall it�s like a last day parade
And the fires in our streets start to rage,
so wave, to the people that long to wave back,
from the fabric of a flag that sang "love all of the time"
Robbie happy =P
That's suppose to be my second bible. It's not. Thus the grades i am getting in my journalism class. not good. i skipped class today again for race class. i fucked up again i know. believe me i really don't want to but i just do. i really don't like it. i hate how i am. i know i can kick ass but i don't because i am just too lazy.
i woke up with a feeling of guilt and depression. then i turned on the laptop and launched MSN and saw Kelvin's nick there. thought about his parents going to UK to see him graduate. suddenly felt like/knew i had to not fuck up and just study again because i want my parents to have that chance too. i mean, they deserve it. I shouldn't be fucking up right now because i see the face of my mom and dad. i feel bad for them. they're such awesome parents with such fucked up ingrate for kids. they're the best in the world. my parents had never asked for anything much in return from us. they've given me all they could. spoilt us to the max more than they can afford it. sure i have friends who are more spoilt or have more stuff than me but they're damn rich also. then i also have friends who are damn rich but their parents spoilt them less. then there's me spoilt to the max when we come from a middle class family. what the heck. my parents are awesome and i think they deserve to be happy. and i should make them happy and not make them all upset all the time. i mean i feel bad that i keep wanting to go back to Malaysia too when i've not really done much. i mean.. it cost alot u know and my dad don't have that sort of money. luxury. luxury. no i am still going for my "tour" that is a must and it's out of the allowance i get anyway. so i am not asking for extra.
so i need to go study. see if i can read what i can for my Editing quiz today. it's insane we have quiz every class and 3-5 chapters each time too.
i am so tired. i really don't feel like doing it anymore. and no elaine, i am not gonna get some beer and smoke just to feel better. maybe some prozac or valium would do. and some vicodin too.
Name: Keith Michael Goodwin
Position: Guitar / Vocals
Birthday: 05/13/83
Hometown: Langhorne PA
Favorite Color: Green (wtf, 3/4 of the whole band likes GREEN)
Favorite Food: Flautas
Favorite Smell: My house
Favorite Movie: Wonder Boys
Favorite Band: Soul Coughing (side dish: he told me it was his mom who introduced this band to him cause his mom loves Soul Coughing), Ben Folds Five
Favorite Album: Ben Folds Five Self Titled
Favorite Song: Fight Test
Favorite Book: ADD. Can't sit around and read. My hands start to shake and I just
start talking out loud what I'm thinking and it won't have to do with the book. At all.
Favorite Song to Play Live: God and Mars
If I Could Be Any Cartoon Character I'd Be: Cartman
Biggest Fear in Life: Losing my family (Keith's a middle child... one younger brother and one older brother)
"if i wasn't doing this (from my heart), i wouldn't be doing it at all" -Keith, on Music.
so go check their music out.
*sigh*
just realized that i do not have a break between two summer sessions... that means i'd have to go on studying all the way till december since Febuary with only 2 weeks break in total... fucking shit.
Makes me even more ready to rebel against the fucking system (no not skipp classes but maybe just a little). Fuck i am ready to book my plane ticket to Denver and then Baltimore, buy my tickets for Days Away at Denver, Finch in Philadelphia and prereg for that Otakon whatever anime festival for L'Arc~en~Ciel (don't ask)-- no turning back.
Done, just finish buying my Finch/DA ticket at Philadelphia. Now just need to get that Otakon thing, but that's $50 for a 3-day pass when i don't need a 3-day pass... But then the 1 day pass is $40, so i might as well get the 3-day right? I mean, even if I get to Baltimore late, i can go pick up that pass on Friday itself, so i don't have to wait in line on Saturday so i can TRY to get a good spot to see L'Arc right? <--- wishful thinking that life always tries its best to fuck up.
The more i read on this Otakon thing the more i feel sad that i am only gonna go for a day... Seems like it's a really cool big event with lots of cool stuff to see and do and it's like the biggest Anime convention in North America.... hmmm Nevermind. I'm just gonna go there to see if i can see even a tiny spot of L'Arc-- please, please, please, let me see at least THAT... i really don't want to pay $300+ to end up looking at them on a screen, i might as well just buy a DVD or something....
sigh i feel depressed. i don't even feel like doing my homework now. sigh
I've figured it out!!!!!!!!
I'm gonna go to Days Away Denver show on the 17th.
Then I am gonna fly to Baltimore on 30th July (friday) so i can go "early" for the L'Arc show on the 31st....
THENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
I am gonna take a bus to PHILADELPHIA (YES!!! DAYS AWAY'S HOMETOWN!!!!!!!!!) to catch the DAYS AWAY show with FINCH, YES FINCH!!!!!! AGAIN!!!!!! on Aug 1st!!!!!!
And then go back to LA on Aug 2... meaning i'll miss school for 1 day. heh.
AND THENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
Fly to Boston on the 17th for warped tour on the 18th!!
DONE DEAL!!!
GREAT IDEA????? No i swear I'm sensible ;) as keith sang! woo! haha!
NANI??????? WHAT THE HELL???????
how???? BROWN COW?!
I want to go! But I can't afford to fly out of CA 3 times this year!!! not after spending $140 last 2 days on NOTHING! Summore i am going to Bakersfield next sunday!
What am i going to do?????????????????
I can't abandon Days Away and not go to Utah AND Denver.... I'd just feel bad if i went to Denver but not Utah just because of L'arc...
And then, i was already planning to go to Boston for Warped Tour with Elaine Teh....
But L'arc.... this is like a REALLY SUDDEN stroke of fate! Cause if Lin hadn't told me about L'arc 2 months ago, i wouldn't have bothered.
And also how i found out about the show was just plain fateful... I was looking for Chinese rock songs to listen to (and wanna recommend to Keith wuahahahaha)... And i found this all-girl BEIJING PUNK BAND "Hang on a Hole". And then i went to look for their music and saw this Samurai Girl US Tour 04... But it was already over... then that page had links to this other page that basically kept track of Japanese bands touring in North America, and the first thing I see is the latest news update: L'arc to play in US!
AND I WAS LIKE O_O WHAT???????????????????????????????
I mean it's such a fate!!! cause I would not know shit about what's going on! I mean i don't care about L'arc tour dates or whatever, but suddenly, out of no where when i'm not even looking for information, i STUMBLED upon it!!!!!! and it's their FIRST EVER AMERICAN TOUR DATE!!
I mean isn't that the opportunities i should take advantage of being in America????? ISN'T IT????
Da thing is that, I really want to go because I was at the Taking Back Sunday show last month at House of Blues, and the supporting bands were playing, and I was just standing there, day dreaming about how cool it was if one day Lin and I could fly to Japan together and we'll go for a L'arc show! I was sooooooo into it, because it would be awesome for her to see one of her favorite band... I could see her face even now... I even wanted to buy her a plane ticket so she could catch their tour in Japan.
SO NOW THEY ARE PLAYING HERE AND WHAT THE HELL AM I HESSITATING FOR?!
crappppppppppppppppppppp
Because i can't AFFORD it, elaine, because you can't afford it =(
But elaine.... waht happened to grabbing life at the breasts?????????????????????????????????? THIS IS IT!! DO IT!!! GO FOR IT!!!!!! LIFE IS ABOUT THIS!!!! no?
YES!
yeappppp, i FINALLY went to the Warped Tour today!
"and remember kids, don't wear flip flops to a punk rock show"
SO! I went for Warped Tour today! How unexpected!
Was suppose to yesterday, remember? the whole Michelle deal???
But anyways, I told Michelle yesterday i would have like to go for warped tour today but didn't think i could cause TBS plays at 3pm and it takes me more than 3 hours to get down to Fullerton by train and class ended at 12pm.... Since i already skipped 2 classes this week, didn't think that there was a chance to actually go.
THEN! teacher gave us time for group discussion for our final project and only one other girl in the group turned up! So i was off class by 11:12!
But my calfs were hurting like hell and i didn't want to go for Warped Tour- I felt really bad cause I felt like I was not supporting TBS enough. But I thought, you know, I will go support them when their album comes out (YES LOOK AT THE BANNER AT THE TOP OF THE PAGE!! I CHANGED IT! WUAHAHAHHAHA!), and they headline tour, I will definitely go support them... Then I told myself that i will go for Warped only on the condition that either 1) there was a direct train that would get me there in time by 3. 2) I'll call Satoshi and ask if he'd go...
SO!
I called satoshi and guess what??????? He said he'd take me there! He told me, "I'll go if you want to go, because I have nothing to do today anyway"
So we went!!! We got there late but TBS was only gonna play at 7:30pm today. They had a signing at 3:30 but mannnnnnn the line was soooooooooo long i didn't bother- I mean i had 10,000 chances to get shit signed u know what I mean? but i never did it back then, so why bother lining so damn long in the hot burning sun now??
But Luis, cause he's part of Fanscape (the "agency" that promotes TBS) he was at the signing booth, so i got him to take me a pic of the band (pic will be loaded later!).
THen we went walking around and i went to look at who was gonna play when and where and I found out that THURSDAY was playing then!!! So i went to see Thursday!
And u know what? That geoff guy, is AWESOME. Thursday is still one of those bands that don't fake it and just radiates boundless energy! Always, still, one of those intense ridden bands that will scathe you! And u know what??? Halfway standing there in the pit, I really suddenly felt like listening to Thursday's "new" stuff... I never really checked out their album when it was released last year, but today, after me just declaring that i am really sick of emo/punk english music just 4 hours ago, I suddenly felt revived again and knew that Thursday could give me that breath of fresh air!!!
So anyways, after that we went to get food and just sat around from 4:30 to 6... Satoshi is such a sweetie cake... brought me all the way there, i paid for half of his ticket and gas though but that's only cause i should. But I was just dragging him around the whole day here and there and he tells me "we'll just do what you want to do, okay? Cause we came here for you"-- awwe... isn't that sweet?
Well anyways, at 6, i left my stuff with Satoshi (cause he was tired) and went into the pit to wait for TBS! (two stages, left and right, one band plays on the left stage, then next band plays on the right stage, and then next band plays on the right stage, one after another) So basically i went into the pit 1 1/2 hours before TBS, when the other stage was playing, and then it was Bouncing Soul that played at our stage, then another band on the other stage, and then only back to TBS on our stage.
But anyways, manage to push my way through to the second row from the front!!!! Then I really thank God because God always sends His angels to watch over me in the pit, because this black guy whom i was standing behind of, he suddenly turned to me and asked me if I could see ok. and i told him i did. But he allowed me to go infront of him meaning i could squeeze myself int FRONT ROW!!!!
ANd the most awesome thing was that, when bouncing souls came on, they're like this real punk ass band (Bad Religion, NoFX types), and basically the kids at where i was first standing at before i got infront were just absolutely insane... And the black guy was really nice cause he was preventing the kids from behind from squashing me to death. So I was well protected! thank God!
Anyways......................................
TBS came on........................
And all i can say is that.................................
They NEVER EVER fail to overwhelme me ALLLLLLLLLLLL THE TIME...
THey were absolutely intense, awesome--- THeir pits are still one of the most amazing pits to get stuck in...
Adam was just INSANE, and i mean it, he was INSANE today... He was shaking his head about like mad, swinging the mic around LIKE MAD...
AND THEN... at the END of the set, he CLIMBED THE SIDE BARS AND HUNG UPSIDE DOWN FROM THE STAGE ROOF TO SING THE LAST BITS OF CUTE WITHOUT THE E.... (btw, this was how he broke his pelvis 2 years ago hanging upside down shows ALL THE TIME... dats why he nicknamed himself Spidey... wuahahahaha... No wonder TBS is on Spiderman 2 soundtrack! hahahah)
Fred was AMAZING too...... so was matt... Sorry Eddie but erm... couldn't see you well!! Stupid crowd surfers- i swear at one point i thought i was gonna get my arm broken cause it got caught between the barricade and the grasps of the security grabbing one of the crowd sufers..
but SHIT!
I had a AWESOME AMAZING TIME!!!
TBS IS THE SHIT MAN! TBS IS THE SHIT!!!!!
Suddenly i remembered again why the hell i love them live so damn much!!! crap!
it was REALLY awesome this time, cause i went without expectations, u know... I was there just cause TBS is playing u know, no special reason or whatever- it was Warped Tour and TBS was playing.... And I'm in the phase now that i can say goodbye to TBS without regrets...
But shit man, there in that pit today, though 40% of the time i had the bulging belly of the security up against my face, i had guys kicking my head till my spec's glasses fell out, i had my arm almost broken (it's just bruised now), but shit man! screaming with Fred and all his lines, watching matt sexxing his bass, seeing Adam strut there rocking out and swinging the mic like he was choking himself, the blasting kaleidascope of sounds, dancing and shaking your ass like hell to the music, hands stretched out to the beat of the drum, screaming out like hell to their songs, shit man, THIS IS DA BOMB!!!!!!!!!!
ahhhhhh
Truly, truly, you know what my friend? This is really, really, really... where you want to be!
Elaine's Most Played For Past 4 Months
Elaine's comments:
Alright! TBS... ONE SONG??? ~sigh~ BUT played a crazy amount of 75 times!!!!
And as you can see, Saves The Day actually dominates!
I was kinda surprised about:
1) That ZOLOF had so many songs on top 25!!!
2) The Pillow's Instant Music actually had more play time than did their Little Busters song!
3) I listened to Inuyasha's song THAT much???
Elaine's explanations:
Actually, this "chart" is not that representative... cause..
1) Some songs are short, so I loop them alot more than others.
2) Some bands/songs, I listen to them collectively, like the whole album in one play. Like TBS, i actually listen to them alot-- but when i listen to TBS i listen like 25 songs all together... so it takes like 2 hours before it actually loops back to the first track-- so that's why songs like You Know How I Do, gets little count.
3) Itunes only count a track played COMPLETE. Like when i listen to TBS single track, like You Know How I Do (yes as u can see i love that song), I reloop it before the song ends, so the play didn't register on iTunes.
In All--
Taking those into consideration... Saves The Day is up there on my playlist with the MOST VALID reasons- Their songs rock, and I listen to all 8-10 songs one shot and STILL end up looping it so much, plus their songs are also sometimes quite short.. But yeap!
Songs currently burning incredible time on my playlist that you MUST check out:
Every Little Thing - Soraii (ELT is like the Jpop band i like the most, probably.)
Hitomi - There Is
Hitomi - Kimi no Tonari
Hyde - Shallow Sleep (I found this song when Quang Lin pique my interest to look for Hyde and his wife Megumi pics, and found this one site that had this song playing. Downloaded it, and all i can say is that DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN it's awesome!)
oh yeh i forgot, when i was taking the subway to Union Station today, when we got to Union Station, there was a lockdown because of a bomb threat and we were all stuck inside the train for like 5-10 minutes... Like more than a dozen sheriffs came and surrounded the train checking each of the compartments one by one, and they came into ours and looked under the seats with flashlights and all (yahh like the movies), and then they locked us inside again... abit baka no? cause if there's a bomb on the train... shouldn't you EVACUATE the passengers when u can instead of locking them in???
anyways... all ends well... or at least we got let out but the there were some of the compartments that were still locked in for more security check.
welcome to the City of Angels... welcome to LA.
u remember him?
that guy (jerk)
but cute.
whatever fella. no no. blah <-- sounds of process of denial.
Well, just remembered a random thing the other day at when i told him i wanted to go to the mall and we went and walked once around and we going down the escalator part near the pet store and i told him i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeed doggies!!!! and asked if he liked pet. Which he doesn't.... cause he's allergic to them.
~haih~
anyways, we got down, and he actually walked to the pet store so i could go see the doggies.
sweet. no?
*haih*
I did "hold" his arm (Kevin told me ARM, cause that's the safest non-signalling part) and dragged him, heh, to see some of the doggies... but the place started getting packed so we left... I wanted to see the bunnies.. then not really.
But he still went to the pet store first right?
*sigh*
I hear Homegrown singing to me "give it up, oh-oh, give it up"
But my only other image is Keith's eyes when he looks at me when he's really interested in what I'm saying and THAT is NOT A GOOD alternative!
*****sigh****
it's good to have the phone number of a band member in your phone in case of emergency LIKE TODAY what the hell.
SOOOOOOOOOO i hauled ass down to fullerton today- Michelle was suppose to pick me up at 4pm to get down to San Diego for Days Away's set at about 7:30.... She got to me at 5:15... On a July 4th weekend, that's just fucking stupid.
Anyways, had problems from the very begining. Michelle was being bitchy quiet for some reason, and when michelle's quiet, it's time to worry.
First, we wasn't really sure of the venue and michelle wasn't too sure to get to the venue we think it's at, so we kept calling people. Then Michelle told me to call Tim to check the venue and to see waht time they're playing cause we might not get there on time and so if they're gonna play early, we might as well not go.
SO in the end i got through to Tim.
The show was CANCELLED.
thank goodness we were still in Fullerton area.
Anyways... I got kinda quiet cause it was really potong stim, cause FOR ONCE, i was actually excited about wanting to see Days Away on stage whether or not we get to talk to the band cause i really wanted to go support them and have someone be singing in their pit!
THEN, Michelle started getting chatty- and she asked me if I wanted to go see MAE at Warped Tour-- we had to sneak in. I was really reluctant cause I like MAE but i really didn't want to stand in an open door arena, wait for the show to start, etc... THen she said New Found was playing, so i thought, okay maybe it's okay to go--
So i sat silent and she saw i was tired and she BROUGHT ME TO THE STATION intead! By then i was already up for WARPED TOUR.
So i told her, I don't want to go back (plus, she was still fucking angry at something)
THen in the end she fucking blew up and said "Now i dont' want to go for Warped tour" and I was like WHY THE FUCK NOT?! and then she fucking said "i'm tired, i'm hungry. I want to sleep."
And then i told her, just go and get food or something, but i am not leaving.
ANd then she fucking threw a fucking tantrum like a fucking 4-year-old kid. She was fucking fuming at SOMETHING- but fuck knows waht it was- she would not fucking say it, she DIDN'T EVEN FUCKING KNOW herself what the fuck she was mad at. That's just fucking childish. I just wanted to say to her "grow the fuck up. you are fucking 19 not fucking 9. So don't act like a fucking child"
Fuck shit.
And then when we went to get food, she didn't order anything. Like me, saving money. I offered to buy food, she fucking refused. WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT.
Anyway, the dissapointing part came at the end because i took a train back to LA instead cause this was exactly like it was that day coming back from Utah. So i called Satoshi to pick me up from the Universal City Station..
And so, i went to get the train and Michelle came back to accompany me for abit... Then she had to leave... then before she left she said to me "promise me that you will never take the train again," and I was like "why? you made me take the train here today,"
and u know waht she fucking said?
"that's because you were fucking stubborn"
i tell u, if i had a gun, i would have fucking shot her right there and then.
WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?!
FUCKING STUBBORN??
This was the FIRST FUCKING TIME i had forced someone to go for a show with me. I had NEVER asked her for anything that she didn't want to get into. She fucking gave me an ultimatum yesterday when i begged her to bring me to San Diego and she said to me
1) give me $30 to get my phone back on- AND I FUCKING DID
2) u have to take the train to Fullerton cause i am not going up to pick u- and I FUCKING AGREED.
I even offered to fucking pay for gas.
AND SHE COMES BACK AND SAYS THAT?!
if she didnt' want to fucking go then she should have REALLLY put her foot down and said no!!
AND ALSO, she's as fucking in love with Days Away as much as I am!
WHAT THE FUCK'S WITH THAT???
I fucking went to fucking UTAH with her, paid fucking gas money more than $50, and I didn't LOVE fucking SOmething Corporate to the same proportion as she does Days Away.. and it was FUCKING UTAH! all i asked for was SAN DIEGO! and san diego was 98 miles from her.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WITH THAT!
I tell u, seriously, i really hated myself there and then for being so fucking dependent on friends over here because I have so little of them that i cannot lose any... otherwise, i really want to say "FUCK YOU AND GO AND FUCK OFF." to all these fucking friends that treat me like trash sometimes. FUCK YOU AND FUCK YOU TOO.
But i can't.
ANYWAYS...
on that note, satoshi was a sweetie again... he came all the way just to pick me up and that was nice of him hehe... all he asked for was boba and shrimp cake in return, so that was cute... And not like he asked for that directly, cause I asked him if he wanted to go somewhere else... he aactually just wanted to go back cause he was tired... but he asked if i wanted boba, so i said okay... and he asked for boba... haha.. So I bought him boba then he felt hungry and asked if he could have shrimp cake.... cause i oso missed him (cause didn't get to see him much last week and this week), so i bought him shrimp cake.
Although, i dont think i should have hugged him, cause er... then he again also like was leaning against me and all that after that-- U know how he used to do that and i didn't like it but i didn't care to push him away (not totally) so everytime last time when he did lean on me i DID push him away!! wuahahahha and he got the hint-- but since i hugged him just now.. eh. haih.
ANYWAYS.. AGAIN he talked about the girlfriend thing, AGAIN i fucking avoided the subject. hehehehe =D
So yeah... he was a sweetie today =)
Actually, u know, my parents told me i could go back to Malaysia if i didn't want to do summer 2, since my bro and my cousin will be back also.... But i remembered that Satoshi was gonna leave by the end of summer... so i might not have him around anymore.... And then also, that means i wouldn't have finished my Japanese lessons with him either-- Sigh.... soooooooooooooooo.... i guess i won't go home huh? unless i actually do that Wayang Kulit thing, which i am very much interested in doing... haih... but i will miss satoshi lah.
SO THAT'S IT!!
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK I NEVER GO TO TO SEE DAYS AWAY TODAY!! shiteee!! i really wanted to see them live!! and if i could, TALK TO KEITH TOO-- cause he was so cute... he IS so cute! how he danced... how i asked him to speak french and he looked at me and said dead pan "NO" hahaha cute Keith, you're so fucking adorable i wish i could hug you forever, PLEASE! =( *hugs imaginary keith*
Oh my goshhhhh those eyes... i wish all of you could be over here and you could see Keith's eyes.... Damn I need $1,000... maybe i can bring him BACK instead! wuahahahah... but fuck, he won't come. fuck fuck fuck... sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
No i am serious though... shite, his eyes when he looks at u.... GOSHHHHHHHH
haihhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
the (stupid) things i do for love- sigh~