sigh... why do i feel this way? i mean... why can't he even just email you know what i mean? That's all i really ask for you know... but yet, it's like too much. you know. i don't want anything more than just that but even just that, i just don't understand why people are like that... that's all i'm really hurt about, you know... for that one reason. i mean was what i did really that bad? and i mean, even he was offended, he should tell me, you know... why leave me hanging, why leave me second guessing... "i wanna hate you so bad but i can't"... i guess when i see him again, i really don't wanna talk to him anymore, you know. I was nice to him and that's all i meant, and if he's just gonna be this way about it, that's just not cool you know... it's just not cool...
Anyway, need to go reporting.
well... i'm waiting for his email... i hope he emails.
I mean... damn... guess my "happiness" only lasted for that long.... 12 hours.... then all the paranonia and dissapointments and worries and doubts set in again.
I mean... for the first time... i guess i was happy cause i didn't think that he was like scared or anything... u know.... like Hung was when i decided to "surprise" him. Or at least for the first time it didn't seem like i was deperate or obsessed u know (cause i was not) but just crazy, yes (which i was tho =P)
I mean like... maybe he was shocked? but he was talking like normal? i wonder if this whole thing will be like the Hung thing again or not, and i guess that's what i am quite scared abt.... I hope he's cooler about it that way.... i hope he emails me anyway....
pls, may i go back to california now, please? thank you very very much. says:
i drove 200km today
pls, may i go back to california now, please? thank you very very much. says:
from here to town up brickfields to bangsar back down towards Klang Lama to Kajang Highway to Sri Kembangan to Putrajaya to KLIA back through Putrajaya to lots and lots and lots of highways and tols to Cheras to Loke Yew to Jalan Masjid to Jalan Ampang to KLCC to Brickfields to Bangsar to home only to be screamed at by my dad for scamming him USD9000
